Don porter movies and tv shows

I'll preface this by saying, I am in no way a fan of Tik Tok. I don't use it. But. Credit where credit us due. I appreciate the unrequested wing man.
Way back probably ten or so years ago, I finally started watching The Clone Wars. I had seen the 2008 movie in theaters and had since written it off as probably just as bad as what I had seen that opening day. Like many others, once I started watching it, I understood how great it was. I'd mention it to my wife, who I'd argue is a bigger than your average person fan, but not "I need to consume all media and understand every reference for everything" fan. That's fine. Not even my wife is perfect. :)
She is also fairly hard headed. If I try to push something too hard, she will just push back even harder. Even after the season 7 finale, and me explaining how INCREDIBLE the final arc is, how great Ahsoka's story is, how, there is a reason why there are quite a few people who consider her to be their favorite character. Nope. "I'm not watching a kid's show."
Cut to twoish months ago. We had watched all of the Disney live action shows. And i think her opinion generally was that of most fans: really enjoys Mando, Kenobi was fine but could have been better, she wasn't a huge fan of Book of Boba except the Tuscan Raider parts, and REALLY enjoyed Andor. Anyways, the Ahsoka show is starting to rear its head. Release info, trailer, and she starts getting BOMBARDED by tik toks about Ahsoka. And, she was REALLY into them. Algorithm doing its thing I guess. Shed constantly be asking me questions about her.
So finally, after nearly a decade of suggesting, begging to watch it with her, SHE asks if we could watch some episodes, "just to know some of her backstory". That turned into us watching 90% of the show! I'll admit, I did skip some episodes, especially from the first two seasons. I also skipped the movie. I just wasn't going to risk her getting put off by the episodes that are weak right away. I HAD to hook her.
And I did! She would constantly turn to me and go "this is NOT a kids show!!" "Nope" id answer. We ended up binging the entire season 7 yesterday and this evening and she just turned to me and said "that was REALLY good."
So, thanks, Tik Tok. I literally wasnt able to do it without you! Tomorrow evening we start Rebels. She is so excited. I'd been telling her about Hera and Zeb (and noted his cameo in Mando) and everyone else but she now wants to know all about them before Ahsoka comes out! She wants more of what happens to Rex and Ahsoka and Bo etc. I honestly never thought id be watching some of my favorite SW content with my wife. I was happy just enjoying the live action stuff with her!
Sorry for the ramble, I'm just so happy. May the force be with you!

Sexually, I always thought I was heterosexual but it's always been a little weird. I get turned on by men and dicks and stuff, but I don’t feel “appeal” for it. In fact the only way I can get turned on by men is by feeling repulsed/uncomfortable/violated. I know it sounds like I might be a victim of SA but I never was and it's been like that for as long as I can remember. Visually I can find the look of a man attractive and cute, but when I start seeing the other aspects of the man like the body and demeanor, all I see is cringe, repulsive, and unattractive. It's almost like my parts are working and responding normally, but mentally there is no attraction or connection. I've heard straight girls say things like "I want that man's scrumptious abs in my face" or something and I have never felt that sort of positive attraction connecting to arousal. I have been especially confused about the concept of "making love" or "lovey" sex, because I hear people talk about how physical arousal can intertwine with feelings of love and desire, I just don't get that at all. I rarely feel arousal from women, but I feel much more visually pleased and comfortable by the look of women than men. Very rarely I can feel arousal from lesbian content, but it feels very forced and not as easy as with male content.
Romantically, I've usually guessed that I was biromantic but I'm not so sure anymore. I have always loved feeling fuzzy from straight romance shows and movies, and when I was younger I have definitely had the typical straight fuzzy crush experience. I had relationships with men that were seemingly normal, but looking back, I was much more into the idea of having a boyfriend than the actual boy. About 3 years ago, it feels like any of my romantic feelings for men have dropped off the face of the earth. Nothing major happened aside from mental illness possibly gradually getting worse, but I have been in relationships with 2 men since and it felt like I was in it more for the idea of the relationship than the attraction. With those relationships, I felt asexual/lesbian just tolerating the man and forcing myself to do acts of affection. There were moments where I felt attached to the men but I think it came from more of a place of neediness, loneliness, and validation. Also, the relationships would start out happy but would always end up the same, in that there would just be too many things about the man that I didn't like, which added up. On the other hand, about 5 years I started feeling like I was romantically attracted to women, but never got the chance to put it to the test (just felt like I was getting crushes for them too). I'm not sure if I've ever "been in love" but that's a loaded question.
Also I have OCD which is the "doubting disorder", so that doesn't help my confusion and can possibly the culprit to all of this, but who knows. Anyways any help is appreciated and happy pride month

I am so ready for this last episode I can’t even put it into words. I’ve watched each reunion in various locations and I’m in the ATL this week if anyone wants to meet up for a watch party (are there any bars that would show it?!).
I don’t know what the shocking thing is but I hope we finally get something good. Stop teasing me Bravo!
What was your favorite moment of the reunion so far? I think watching Tim breakdown when Rachel asked about his intimate moments with Ariana was my favorite.

he sent this to me after we hung out today. we hung out last week too, but he claimed he wanted to be friends then. today he was more distant, but when he dropped me off we kissed. i hugged him like 3 times because he has been so cruel and distant and i miss the old him. i don’t want to let him go, but i feel like it’s 1 step forward and 3 steps back with him. his mental health has been steadily declining during the last 2 months (i’ve known him for 9 months now). he hasn’t showed any signs of BPD until these last 2-3 months ish. he told me he thinks he has it.. i do too and he won’t get help

Heya I'm back! Happy pride month🌈🌈 y'all I've been away doing some me work and self healing and I'm ready to come back into the dating world And I find myself missing someone to love and share the little things in life with texting watching tv playing board games going on cute dates You name it
I'm a 22 year old lesbian from the west coast
In my free time I like to listen to music watch anime crime shows and Disney ( owl house Steven universe etc )
Catch up on my art work when I have the time such as knitting painting cross stitch and crochet 🧶
I also like reading and writing photography and playing video games
So let's chat I will be honest I'm looking for a relationship more than friends and I'm monogamous And preferably looking for someone in my area ( west coast Vancouver to California area )
So hmu
Have a good day/ night

looking for some cool goobers?
Little bit about me :3
Artist I like:
Car Seat Headrest, Tv Girl, Modern Baseball, The Front Bottoms, Acid Bath, Goatwhore, Korn, Deftones, Nirvana, Alice In Chains, Soulfly, Mac Demarco, Zillakami, City Morgue, $uicide Boys, Black Country New Road, Tyler the Creator, Machine Girl, Mitski, Radiohead, Pretty Sick, Pierce the Veil, Alex G, The Garden,…..etc
A Song About me -TV Girl Break-Alex G Just Another Face-Modern Baseball Whole Lotta Grey-$uicide Boys Beach life in death- Car seat Headrest It Almost Worked- TV Girl
Shows/Movies I like: Fantastic Mr.Fox, Moonlight, The Perks of being a Wallflower, Everything Everywhere All At Once,The Grand Budapest Hotel,Little Miss Sunshine A Silent Voice, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Soul Eater, Death Note, Attack on Titan, and etc….
Things I like to do : I love to draw digitally mostly, listening to music, dressing up, and baking I’m trying to find new hobbies
Things I love: Black cats, vanilla scented candles, grandma/grandpa sweaters, butterflies, jewelry, baggy pants, coffee, Garfield, Converse, Rats, Penguins, dark green and brown, and most of all 🍃etc….

Dear Internet,
As you may have seen, Technodad and I have just launched the Festival of Voices. We have been working on this since February. I have been working on this every single day since February. This has been my life for MONTHS and I couldn’t tell you all. I wanted so desperately to tell you though. Believe me, I did. BUT NOW I CAN TOTALLY TELL YOU!!! LOOK AT THAT THING WE DID!!! LOOK AT WHAT WE BUILT!! It wasn’t perfect, but it truly had the spirit of Technoblade in it. We may have limped along but we never stopped, AND we raised SEVENTY THOUSAND DOLLARS!! I am exhausted, but so violently proud of it.
I want to say thank you to a couple of people because I believe in credit where credit is due. Icy, my day one on this. She was studying with me the day that Technodad first responded to me on Reddit. I told her I had a thing I needed help with, and 5 minutes later she texted me a Discord username she made just for this. She has let me sleep on her floor and eat her party muffins and sob uncontrollably at her desk. She has stood by me on this since the moment the idea slid into my brain. She was the one who saw me fall apart, she was there through every doubt, and every issue. She held my hand as we posted the announcements. She hugged me when I needed it. Without her, this would not have happened. I would have fallen flat on my face without her support. I don’t think I will ever be able to fully explain the depth of my gratitude.
Hous, Boomer, and Scar, my weird little internet siblings. They let me burst right into this little community they made, and they handled how quickly everything snowballed with a tremendous amount of grace. They deserve so much love for how quickly they adapted to my breakneck pace. But they also helped keep me sane. They keep my feet firmly on the ground, and I love them for it. Thank you for letting me keep my secrets, and learning a million and one things I asked you to. They are the brightest kids I know, and a testament to the power of young people. I have no doubts in my mind that they will all go on to do beautiful and amazing things.
Code, Spanner, Kiran, and Bump, the OGs. These guys have known me on the internet the longest. They watched me grow up, make a million and one mistakes and bounce back from them. They have seen me when I was a disaster and chose to stick with me anyway. I am so glad we found our way back together and I wouldn’t have picked a better team to build this dream with. They are truly incredible developers, certified geniuses, and WAY overqualified to be my tech support. I am so proud of that team, I am so proud to have worked with them, and I am so proud to continue to do so. Thank you for meeting stupid deadlines, your endless patience towards me, and your brilliant minds. I love you guys.
Tommy, the man himself. I was so initially nervous to work with him, but through this entire process, he has been unfailingly kind, endlessly patient, and beyond supportive. Since the moment we pitched it to him, Tommy has gone above and beyond to make this happen in the capacity that it has. He has shown up in ways I never expected of him. I am so proud to say I worked with him on this, and even more honored to consider him a friend. This man truly does not get enough credit for how cool he is.
Ranboo, king boober if you will. Thank you for helping me pivot. There was a time I was completely in freefall and they reached out and caught me and helped me screw my head on straight. Thank you for showing me the ropes, thank you for giving me the best advice I had ever gotten through this whole thing. I would be so much less sure of what I was doing if it wasn’t for him. Truly one of the most brilliant minds I have ever had the privilege of working alongside or calling a friend, and I cannot come up with enough ways to convince the world that they are just as kind, intelligent, and patient as they seem. More so even.
The Creators involved, thank you for showing up and turning out. You guys took a scuffed event and made it hilarious and memorable! Scott, and Aimee specifically, your insight was INVALUABLE. Thank you for letting me pick your brains!! WE DID THIS THING AND THEY CRUSHED IT! Apollo, Artemis, Demeter, and Persephone, my second family. It’s no secret that I totally adore these guys. They have made the last few months a total dream, and I will never stop being grateful for the way they adopted me into their ranks. I have more words for them than I will ever be able to type out. See you guys soon!
u/MrTechnodad , just, this guy. I was a risk for you. An unknown variable. To take me on so intensely as you did back in February has changed my life in some of the most beautiful ways. I wake up every day in the life I thought I could only dream about, in part thanks to you. You are insane, ADHD, eccentric, and so SO thoroughly weird it's ridiculous. But we are the same. You have taught me so much about myself and the world around me these last few months, even if it was entirely by accident. In our first conversation you said “Not just one of us, two of us.” and I had no way of knowing just how true that was going to be. I had no clue. Whatever cosmic forces or god or even Alex pulled some strings to make this happen, did it in the most SPECTACULAR way. I will never be able to thank you enough. You have a pretty decent idea already though.
Alex, Technoblade. Your shoes are ENORMOUS and woe to anyone who tries to fill them. Thank you for building this community, this space. Thank you for leaving your shovel and bucket behind when you left. Your legacy will not die, the words “Technoblade Never Dies” will ring true as long as those who loved you remember. I made a promise to you the day I got this job, and that was I will make you proud. I'm still going to make good on that. I tried so hard not to drop the dirt, to leave a pearl in the stasis chamber, to always feed the dogs on time, to check my island minions for secret buffs, to keep my steering wheel in good working order, and to sell out at every available opportunity. Without you, none of this would have ever been possible. Your fingerprints are all over this thing. You are EVERYWHERE. And I am so lucky to have been able to do this for you. Thank you. I carry you with me every day.
And to all the kids out there just like me, the ones who laugh a little too loud, with big dreams and ideas WAY beyond what everyone thinks is possible. The kids who bite off more than they can chew but remain determined to fail forward. The kids with notebooks full of plans, pants covered in paint, and nails with soil under them. The weird kids, the ones with big feelings, the ones who cry ALL the time. Every queer kid out there wondering if they have a place. Those funky little neurodivergents who are still figuring it out (hey same!) The ones who everyone expects big talk but low delivery from. The ones who don’t really fit into any box. This is for you, and you will always have a home with me. You are always welcome at my table. Thank you for learning and growing with me through all this, even though NONE of you knew you were doing it. I hold you in my heart.
If you can’t already tell from the nature of this post, this is a complete and utter dream come true. Every moment of this has felt so spectacularly surreal. Thank all of you for this opportunity, I understand so deeply just how unbearably lucky I am. This whole world burst into my life and made it technicolor. Techno-color? Hehe, get it? Anyway, all I have left is I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Yours in shenanigans, plots, and schemes,
Proton Pixie, u/rockgirlinachemclass, Athena, Internet Big Sister

Howdy! 🤠 I’m in search of meeting the right girl.
I am a 23 year old guy from the state of Iowa. I currently work for a financial institution, and I have a bachelors degree in philosophy and history. My hobbies consist of bowling, exercising, the outdoors, music, movies/TV, and reading.
I like to think of myself as a nice person, and I try to be open-minded. I would describe myself as introverted, somewhat goofy, and humble. I can also being very caring and get attached easily.
I would love to meet a girl that is interested in someone such as myself. I’ve been in a few past relationships, but they have ultimately not worked out. I’d prefer to meet someone that is in the age range of 19-27 and is from Iowa. If not that, then someone from the Midwest, or worst case scenario, the United States.
If I seem interesting to you, please feel free to send me a chat request! Other than that, have a great day/night! Take care 😎

It just takes a moment to ruin a whole fucking day
We were having a great day. My son had a great OT session, was well behaved at swim class... He got anxious and argumentative about going to our non regular target but when given the choice to forgo target the whole weekend (which he normally loves) and go home or go to this one, he wanted to go home. Sure, whatever I'll just go to Safeway tomorrow.
In the afternoon we decided to try out a new sensory friendly playground with his little sister. We brought his balance bike which he's recently become interested in so he could practice. Both kids were well rested and pumped full of snacks and off we went. The entire time we stayed my son rode his bike in and around the playground, refusing to get off and play in the equipment which I didn't care about since he was in the sun and fresh air.
When it was time to head home for dinner we gave a 10 and then 5 then 1 minute countdown. And this is when the next 30 minutes just ruined my fucking day. he refuses to leave the park and despite much cajoling tried to make off to the other end of the park on his bike. My husband managed to grab him and do a fireman's carry to the car, the whole time our son is kicking and screaming. We tried to get him to ride his bike to the car multiple times but he refused stating he wants to stay (till when, who fucking knows).
We managed to get him to the car and he has a total meltdown about going home which then causes his 1 year old sister to cry. My husband has to wrestle him into his seat but since he is now in a booster and uses a regular seat belt he doesn't stay long and proceeds to slip down the seat and get the belt wrapped around his neck.
I freak out and let him loose and pick him up and bear hug him from behind while sitting on the curb, hoping the deep pressure will regulate him. He keeps talking about going back to ride his bike and nothing will calm him down.
I offer to let him ride his bike after dinner around our apartment complex. "NO!" He screams in my face.
What about if I put the bike in the back seat with him, so he can still have it in his gaze as we drive home. "NO!" He screams in my face.
What if we watch a favorite video or listen to a favorite song on the way home? "NO!" He screams in my face.
At this point I'm all out of ideas but am tired and hungry and would like to go home for fucks sake already. So I give a classic timer. Ok in 1 minute you'll have to get in this car and if you don't get in you won't have screen time the rest of the day. No kindle no ipad no movies no TV nothing. Cue screaming and crying in my face. the timer goes off and I pull him into the car. Several minutes of wrestling and I can't get him to sit down long enough to buckle him in. Finally I sit on him and tell my husband to just drive, just go already so we can get home. So we drive home for 17 minutes, him screaming and crying the whole way home, unbuckled , while I sit on his lap. He is 5.5.
This is probably one of the top 10 worst parenting moments I've had and it wouldn't have fucking happened if he had any semblance of flexibility. Like any at all. Ive read so many parenting books, listened to so many podcasts and read so many workshops and articles about anxiety, behavior, meltdowns, setting boundaries, etc and it works until it doesn't and no one can tell you what to do when that happens because all these people assume you have children that will eventually acquiesce or offer reasonable alternative.
Forced choices, timers, visual schedules, token boards, if/then, negotiations, redirections, dropping the rope. I've tried it all. But sometimes the rope can't be dropped. Sometimes shit has to get done and boundaries have to be enfotced and it's not what he wants. And these are the moments I hate because I feel like I give in I'm letting a tiny dictator control everything in our family but if I stand my ground it leads to an hour of terror that ruined an otherwise great day.
Sorry for the ramble but I'm so fucking tired if the rollercoaster and I want to get off this ride already.

To myself I’ve been codependent whole life all I’ve ever known in life to show love was in codependency. Until I went to rehab and learnt how unhealthy it was. I worked so hard on learning how to be okay without someone to be happy in my own company, which can become addictive. Then learn okay with someone and not worried they would just hurt me like all the rest which I was learning and I wasn’t perfect I you think I was looking at your phone to spy but I really wasn’t just looking at your photos for sexy ones of you and your music to play together it was innocent and never attended it to look that way even though you had things to hide I was truely looking at those times I trusted you even though I saw a photo of him I just thought it was a stupid crush and what we were going to build was worth so much more.
Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening

To myself I’ve been codependent whole life all I’ve ever known in life to show love was in codependency. Until I went to rehab and learnt how unhealthy it was. I worked so hard on learning how to be okay without someone to be happy in my own company, which can become addictive. Then learn okay with someone and not worried they would just hurt me like all the rest which I was learning and I wasn’t perfect I you think I was looking at your phone to spy but I really wasn’t just looking at your photos for sexy ones of you and your music to play together it was innocent and never attended it to look that way even though you had things to hide I was truely looking at those times I trusted you even though I saw a photo of him I just thought it was a stupid crush and what we were going to build was worth so much more.
Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening

Me: My, it couldn’t be…
The digger of ore: What happened?
Me: Is time for another show of gen 4th, I need all the seven gen 4th members, but great white shark and orca are missing.
Fox: Well, seriously, they have been gone…for month.
Rabbit、arctic hare、chipmunk、jerboa、fennec fox、sika deer、moose、panda、clownfish & puffer fish: What?
Polar bear: That’s a long time!
Dolphin: That’s why I don’t see them in those weeks!
Sea turtle: Yeah, that’s weird. In the normal days, they two never absent for the show or other something important.
Me: I guess there’s only one thing we have to do, GET THEM BACK!

To myself I’ve been codependent whole life all I’ve ever known in life to show love was in codependency. Until I went to rehab and learnt how unhealthy it was. I worked so hard on learning how to be okay without someone to be happy in my own company, which can become addictive. Then learn okay with someone and not worried they would just hurt me like all the rest which I was learning and I wasn’t perfect I you think I was looking at your phone to spy but I really wasn’t just looking at your photos for sexy ones of you and your music to play together it was innocent and never attended it to look that way even though you had things to hide I was truely looking at those times I trusted you even though I saw a photo of him I just thought it was a stupid crush and what we were going to build was worth so much more.
Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening

With critical pts I can come home and think “shit, that was a crazy day” and then throw my feet up and watch tv. I may dwell on some minor details and how I could improve in the future but nothing crazy.
But it’s the mentally draining pts(the one and done pts, if you will) that just ruin my evening and I don’t know how or what to do to change that.
The last thing I want is to ruminate on every crappy interactions with a pt and what I could’ve said/done differently. Tbf I’ve come up with some pretty good zingers during these times but they’re generally not bed side appropriate and likely would not resolve my issue
What do you do to cope with these pts?

A couple of online articles from the likes of Collider, Yahoo, and Polygon along with a new WatchMojo video titled “How Across The Spider-Verse Is Connected To The MCU EXPLAINED” are saying that the new animated masterpiece is an MCU movie despite being animated and having VERY different rules of the multiverse. I’m not bashing on the MCU or anything, I don’t hate it, but I just thought I should clear up some confusion with the following examples:

• That quote about “Doctor Strange and the little nerd” is just a fun reference and a meta gag as co-director Kemp Powers confirmed that ATSV has “no ties” to the MCU.
  
• That white tree in the MCU is not what Miguel pulled up as it’s just white lines that turn into a red web known as the Spider-Verse.
  
• It hasn’t been confirmed that Donald Glover's characters in ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE and HOMECOMING are exactly the same person. These movies have all sorts of variants and alternate versions these days. It's at the very least a strong nod to his previous turn as the character.
  

...and it all seems like some sick joke, waiting to see the next big "climax". Each is more drastic than the last, as if life itself is trying to push me towards a mental break of my own.
I was never the most social type. I chose my friends early, kept them, and have maintained a few over the last decade or so. I can count my close friends and family on two hands, and that's the way I like it. But almost 9 years ago, one of my closest friends passed away after a long struggle with illness and addiction. He experienced a psychotic break due to amphetamine abuse, during which he experienced delusions and auditory hallucinations of his closest friends dying in torturous ways. His experience opened my eyes to another perspective to both drug abuse and the brain itself.
Fast-forward about five years, and I’m on the phone with my brother N. It’s late night, and he’s at his new apartment all alone. He hears my other brother B and his partner C (who live in a different state), saying terrible things about him in the hallway and he can’t believe they would fly such a distance just to torment him. I’m talking him through the experience, but he’s trying to snap photos of them from over the balcony, and I need to get off the phone and get in contact with somebody who can reach him faster than me.
Thank God my parents listened to me, and left their concert early to intervene. They drove him to a hospital, and after a few days, he came home. He got the hallucinations under control, but I still couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that I knew two relatively healthy young men who experienced these severe mental episodes. I just thought, “why does this keep happening to people around me?"
Of course, this is all before B.
I remember when C first reached out to us to explain the problems that B started experiencing. Prior to this, when he’d come to stay for a month, he exhibited manic and dissociated behaviors, but things were worse than we had seen. He was seeing visions in the skies, and feeling drawn to his higher purpose in the universe to a degree that surpassed earthly expectations. He would disappear in the middle of the night, converse deeply with strangers when compelled to do so, and lived in pure extravagance - despite his limited actual working hours.
After frustrating arguments with my husband about logistics and caring for my two baby girls (another stress entirely!) I ended up with two nights to go with my mother and try to take care of my eldest brother. We flew in on a Friday night, and once we checked into the hotel, we drove straight to his apartment.
The situation had already escalated prior to our arrival. My brother had already turned against his partner and his family. Since my mother made the mistake of defending them in her first minutes on the premises, he immediately turned against her. And so I went alone into his apartment, with the sole priority to gauge his mental state and determine just how “crazy” my brother had gone. My mom texted me from the outside, asking me continuously: “Should we call for help? How is he?”
Initially, I thought we could talk him into a hospital stay voluntarily - but anybody in a situation such as this might understand how difficult this can be. It’s no joke when Belle’s father is thrown into the back of a carriage and taken away: these situations are dangerous, and is there really any other way that they can go? My brother was unpredictable, and lashing out against those who wanted to help. He put a cigarette out on his arm, and carried a pair of scissors around in his pocket. He joked about the “devils” trying to keep him from being who he wanted to be, and to an extent, that may have been true. But in this moment, his stress and unhappiness had cultivated into a violent psychotic break that demanded professional intervention.
I don’t regret calling for help in this instance. I regret the fact that, at his age past 30, we had not drafted a written plan in case he needed this sort of medical intervention. In fact, there wasn’t any paperwork at all! As such, the police took my brother away, and he ended up in a shithole downtown for the homeless and forgotten - all because they could not share any information with us and we could not make any choices for him due to HIPAA, but he was not in the right mind to share information about his insurance or make any decisions for himself. And so the state took over, and he fell off of our radar. We drove from one police station to the next, from one hospital to another, but no luck,
B finally called my phone just before noon the next day. Thank goodness I had the same number since I turned 13 - it was the only one he remembered. The place they took him was a shithole - nothing like they promised, but what can you expect with an overloaded system like theirs? That just set the tone for the rest of our time, trying to get him in an outpatient program - trying to get him through an inpatient program - trying to get insurance to accept a program closer to us, or trying to find a program they’ll accept near home…
Life played out the way it did. There’s no right or wrong way anymore. This is just the way it happened, and nothing else will change it. In November of 2021, we realized my brother was sick. On May 31, 2022, he woke up and decided that he would leave us by any means necessary. That ended up being at a gas station pump in the middle of nowhere, in front of my father, who had the unfortunate job of trying to drive him to the hospital he liked in California.
And so my family began the “healing”(?) process. It took us four months to have a basic funeral, though it was just the close family and his ashes. C and his family flew out and spoke, and our closest friends supported us through the nightmare. C had already had some mental breakdowns of his own, but he was on medication now and his family seemed to be helping him through. We spent some time together, and he doted on my children, and delivered gifts from B that were intended for them. We took a rare photo together. I hugged him and told him to please, please stay strong for my family. My daughters loved their Uncle B, and he could keep his memory alive for them.
It was a hard and emotional time. I knew that B would want me to take care of his partner, no matter the drama between them at the time. I tried, with everything I had, to be there if he wanted me to be - but I was scared, and we are anxious people who value personal space. I didn’t want to come off too strong, but when he called me asking for permission to marry my brother in heaven, what could I do? I told him how much I loved him, and how much he already meant to me. I assured him that he was already my brother-in-law, that he had already been with my brother long past a common law marriage. Maybe that’s just the problem. Love is the strongest drug of all, isn’t it?
And so, less than a week and a half after that phone call, C went to find his soulmate through the same awful method of self-immolation. To his mercy, I heard that his soul passed much faster than that of my poor, beautiful brother. With an imagination like mine, it is not just the guilt… it’s just the whole fucking thing.
Well, if my circle is small, my living brother kept his even smaller. B and C were his best friends, and with them gone, I’m just impressed he has maintained any sanity at all. But now, as stress at work ramps up and his psychosis returns, all I can do is wait and see. This time is different: since I’m involved, he’s pulled away from me, and he won’t be as honest as he used to. His boss is listening in, there are cameras in the lightbulbs, and he’s been living on the “Truman Show” for a while now. He’s deactivated all social media to keep his boss from following him, and he’s currently been missing for 12 hours.
Everything feels hopeless. How much is one person supposed to take? I have three babies now, all aged 4 and under, and they need me to be strong. But I just feel so sad and broken all of the time. I had panic attacks before, but now? Am I doomed to follow the same path? I sleep okay, and I don’t abuse any medications, but god knows I’m a mess these days. I miss my family. I have no friends. My husband is working as hard as he can to help us.
I used to be able to count my circle with two hands. Now I’m down to one, and all the others have lost their mind and/or died. Why is this a thing now? How can I stay strong for my kids? I didn't know about this family curse until I was pregnant with my third... I don't know if I can keep watching this happen over and over again.

Hello, I'm Jacob, a 32-year-old Texan who recently moved back to Rosenberg. I consider myself an introvert who is actively seeking new experiences and personal growth. While I don't prioritize drinking or partying, I'm always open to trying new things. I find joy in immersing myself in the latest shows on Netflix, catching the newest movies at the theater, and exploring new music on Spotify. Gaming is another passion of mine, and I enjoy diving into games like World of Warcraft, Apex Legends, and Call of Duty. If you're a fellow gamer, I'd be thrilled to play together sometime. When I feel the need for outdoor adventures, I find solace in activities like fishing and hiking. At this point in my life, I'm looking to build long-term friendships, and who knows, perhaps something even more meaningful. For me, what truly matters in a connection is genuine compatibility and shared values. I believe that meaningful conversations and deep connections can happen regardless of appearances or age. I value traits like kindness, trustworthiness, and openness in a person, and I strive to foster those qualities in my own friendships. In terms of personal growth, I have a couple of future goals in mind. I'm committed to prioritizing my health and well-being, focusing on losing weight and living a healthier lifestyle. Additionally, I aim to find a fulfilling job that brings me joy and allows me to make a positive impact on others' lives. Lastly, I have a deep desire to explore new places and cultures, and traveling, including the possibility of taking a cruise, is something I aspire to do. While I may appear shy initially, I genuinely enjoy engaging in conversations and can keep them going once I'm comfortable. Loyalty and trust are qualities that define me, and I'm someone you can rely on to keep your secrets safe. I firmly believe that people evolve and change over time, and I never hold anyone's past against them. If you're seeking a loyal and trustworthy friend who is ready to step out of their comfort zone and share in these hobbies and aspirations, I'd be delighted to get to know you better! Please feel free to DM me. I would be more than happy to engage in a conversation and get to know you better. I am eager to hear about your interests, experiences, and aspirations. Likewise, I'm open to sharing my favorite things and discussing my future goals. I love voice chatting and I am more than happy to talk rather than just text. Don't hesitate to reach out.

A couple of online articles from the likes of Collider, Yahoo, and Polygon along with a new WatchMojo video titled “How Across The Spider-Verse Is Connected To The MCU EXPLAINED” are saying that the new animated masterpiece is an MCU movie despite being animated and having VERY different rules of the multiverse. I’m not bashing on the MCU or anything, I don’t hate it, but I just thought I should clear up some confusion with the following examples:

• That quote about “Doctor Strange and the little nerd” is just a fun reference and a meta gag as co-director Kemp Powers confirmed that ATSV has “no ties” to the MCU.
  
• That white tree in the MCU is not what Miguel pulled up as it’s just white lines that turn into a red web known as the Spider-Verse.
  
• It hasn’t been confirmed that Donald Glover's characters in ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE and HOMECOMING are exactly the same person. These movies have all sorts of variants and alternate versions these days. It's at the very least a strong nod to his previous turn as the character.
  

Does this guy actually want to ask me out or am I just reading too much into it?
Me [21F] and I think he’s maybe 24 or 25. I recently started working at this job a few months ago and my first two months there I’ve seen him around but never actually needed to be around him since we work in two different ends of the company. He comes over to my area A-LOT recently since we’ve started “talking”. Writing that in quotes to put emphasis on the fact out conversations are very short 5-10min no more. I’ve had two other female co-workers who are in their 40s maybe older who have suggested he IS IN FACT flirting with me. But the convos between us are mainly banter and friendly work talk.
One interaction which stand out to me from the start until now is when my friend mentioned to him that I used to be engaged. For context, I’m a AVID ring wearer. Like, one of two rings per finger but never on my ring finger for obvious reasons. When he heard her say this he quickly reached for my hand and looked at my ring finger to see for himself if I was wearing one now. I wasn’t. I don’t know how to describe how he did this in words. But it was more like when someone shows you something on their phone that peaks your interest so you quickly grab the phone and read it harder than you did the first time. I hope that makes sense. But that sense of urgency was his body language at the time. He’s normally chill and low-key about his actions but that was abrupt. Why was he that invested on something like that?
Fast forward. Last night, we were working a late shift together and he was closing so he came over to my department to “help where he can”. Of course the convos were all laughs and giggles. Only this time, it was just us. He came over to me when I was standing in the back working on something and I don’t remember what I said but we were laughing and he really liked whatever I said and was laughing pretty hard about it and said “you’re so cute.” While he’s laughing????? What does that actually mean? Do I take that how he said it or is there underlying meaning?
Few minutes later, he comes around to where I’m standing and says, “I’m gonna ask you something but afterwards, I never asked this”
I say okay and wait for him to ask. He’s hesitating so I gently press on and say “go ahead ask me anything.” And he just said “never mind I’ll ask you later”
Ask he was walking away I said tried to get him to ask me anyways. But he wasn’t making any eye contact and was kinda smoothly walking away to go “take care of something real quick”
Now, I’m the kinda woman who does what I do and if I sense something I’ll play it cool until he says something directly. I’ve been this way for a while because I used to take friendly banter as someone being interested but I always end up finding out that I was just reading too deeply into things.
Omg!!! And then today. Bro. TODAY. I didn’t know he was at work and he came over around 12pm randomly and he was helping someone at the desk next to me but I was leaning in the vicinity and he looks over at me and says “your hair looks nice today” and I look at him and say Thanks.
We talk a few minutes later and I asked him about the question he had yesterday. And again tried to leave so I pressed on and asked him to tell me. He said it was out of work so it’s not important. I encouraged him to say it anyways and he said he just thought I was at the same festival and didn’t know if it was me but didn’t want to ask me about actually being there or not at work because it was potentially “awkward” I made a joke that it was fine nothing is awkward for me. He called me “cute, very cute” (I died).
Anyways, later on I text him on our messaging app for work for help with something in a different department. Side note - he is a manager so he’s our entire staffs first contact always by policy. So I didn’t text him out of the blue. Anyways he doesn’t answer in time for me to figure it out on my own. So I text him back saying it was fixed.
He texted back hours later “my bad, are you still here?” And I said I was. And lo and behold he’s back walking towards my section.
What am I to think of this? What’s he really doing? Is it worth me investing myself or does he seem unsure? Just feedback if any kind at this point please. thanks!
Sorry about the length of this. I want to just get accurate advice/explanations.

Movie and show producers should go in a new direction and start making zombie shows with characters that are punished (by dying or w/e) when they make stupid decisions as well as allow peoples actions and dialogue to be more natural.
I'm not saying people act "realistic" (it's zombies ffs) but I AM saying I want to see people do plasabile things. That means not everyone will do the same thing. Smart people die on accident, sometimes dumb people get lucky but on average, people that make smart decision live and that's what I want to see.
I know I'm not the only one that yells at the characters in shows like the walking dead when time after time the script is written such that people do the opposite of what the average person would do.
I'd like to see these shows get away from the tropes that are forced just for immediate drama. Always falling at just the right time, the bad guy always stops just in the right place, lessons/experiences are never learned from, etc.
As a reference, I think a show based on the book series "Day by Day Armageddon" would be a great adaptation.

In a OldSchoolCool thread getting nostalgic about the TV show "Emergency!", the discussion turned to a phrase used in every episode, "Administer Ringer's Lactate and D5W!"
I joked we needed a "Ringer's Lactate" cocktail. Any mixologists of appropriate vintage to remember the show have any ideas? Cheers.