Kaiser pharmacy hours

https://tattle.life/wiki/lucy-letby-case-6/
Baby F is a baby that there is zero doubt that somehow they got insulin they were not ordered.
They had an elevated insulin with an undetectable c-peptide. There is pretty much nothing that can create that result except insulin administration.
July 31 - infant was on insulin for hyperglycemia. They don't ever address what they think the etiology of the hyperglycemia is - it's not typically seen, especially if the baby isn't a micropreemie - in the absence of infection or something else going on. The report do not say for how long the baby was on the insulin drip (meaning they don't say when it was discontinued)
Aug 4 - TPN ordered, and hung by Lucy in the night shift via PICC, just after midnight
Aug 5 - AM (after Lucy leaves) Orders to stop TPN, start a dextrose infusion while they place another PICC.
Aug 5 11 AM new PICC placed
Glucose went up after PICC placement (not unusual - PICC placement can be stressful and stress raises glucoses) new custom TPN ordered and starter TPN (generic TPN that is stocked in the fridge) put in PICC.
Aug 5 pm glucoses still very low, changed fluids again, sugars normalize.
In short, the hypoglycemia continued after multiple bag changes, while LL was not present. Baby was hypoglycemic while LL was present, but the sample with the insulin/cpeptide result was taken in the afternoon after at least 1 fluid change.
No other babies were on insulin that day.
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As I said, everyone agrees this child was given insulin, the question is who and when and how. And why the doctors did not recognize it when the results first came back. It can take several days to result, but that should have immediately spurred everyone into immediate action. It is beyond negligence IMO to have missed that result. It is never a normal result.
Myers goes off on this weird tangent re: trisomy 21, but in the end, the baby didn't have it, and it wouldn't cause those results even if he did.
The doctors apparently brushed it off because baby was ok by the time the results came back, which makes no sense to me as a clinician. You have evidence that someone gave insulin but baby is fine now so....it's ok?
That makes me wonder if the unit was so chaotic that they could easily excuse accidental insulin administration? That's about the only reason that I can come up with, but maybe someone else can think of something LOL
To note: apparently in the UK, instead of high dextrose fluids being mixed in a hood to prevent bacterial contamination, the nurses mix their own high dextrose fluid. Additionally, they apparently mix their own insulin drips.
In every hospital I've been at that has had a baby that is sick enough to need insulin, the pharmacy prepares it, in special tubing that they let the insulin dwell in for a while because insulin binds to the plastic and you lose about 50% of the insulin to that, until the plastic is saturated (after which it is administered normally) This is important because there is zero reason to have insulin on a unit, because insulin for babies is never an emergency. It is an opportunity for error without benefit. This is one of the things that seems to always piss off the NHS cheerleaders - they can't conceive of the standards in their units as being high risk for error or opportunity for harm.
I've had kids with glucoses in the 200s for days, because the risks of low glucose is a million times higher than the risk of high glucose. High glucose damages the body over long periods of time, so a day or two of high sugars isn't going to be the end of the world. But an hour with an undetectable sugar could mean neurologic devastation. It's just such a dangerous medication to have readily available.
So this child was definitely given insulin, but I do not think that there is nearly enough evidence to even hint that LL gave it. The fluid bags were changed throughout the day, while LL was not there. This seems to be a case where they are relying solely on the idea of a pattern and that LL happened to be working at all while the baby was hypoglycemic.
Anyone else have thoughts?

I just wanted to come on here and say after 25 years of migraines and several different Dr's I am finally feeling like I have relief and hope. I am 45 years old and I used to get a few a month when I was younger, then it changed over to averageing 20 a month in my upper 30's-40's. Then I found a general nuerologist I liked ( Previous to that I used a general dr, pain management, ENT, orthopedic for neck, physical therapist, gyno, and chiropractor). With my general Neurologist I tried many meds, and trigger point injections. Most of this with no explaining or discussion in relation to how they all tied together or any clear plans for getting my migraines tolerable. I had to do most of the research on my own and try to connect dots and set up plans with my limited knowledge and suggest different methods to him and then squeeze any concerns or questions into a 15 min appt. I reccently changed to aa actual Headache Specialist who is also a nuerologist and what a huge difference. I felt heard and understood. She spent over an hour with me and came up with a plan of action and back up plans, different options based on if im at work or home or away and what I could still try if current regimen doesnt work. She educated me and also gave me information and tips about insurance and pharmacy issues. She gave me samples, print outs and websites. I felt very supported and what a relief that feeling is. I started preventative AJOVY monthly injections in October and i already used maxalt frequently but she gave me imitrex as an abortive as well and the option to use ubrelvy or nurtec as an abortive. So far the AJOVY has brought my migraines down to an average of 5 a month and my breakthrough migraines have been stopped by ubrelvy. I have a list of combination options if these results dont last but so far so good and Im thankful I have options, groups like this and finally feeling relief. Previously I felt hopeless and out of options. There is hope so hang in there!

9:40AM EST - 9:55AM EST
4.21.2020

 THE MAIN LESSON I LEARNED IN MY TWENTIES WAS SOCIAL DISTANCING. BASICALLY. THEN, AS SOON AS I HIT MY THIRTIES, IN THE 2020'S, BOOM. SOCIAL DISTANCING IS NOW THE NEW NORM RIGHT? THIS IS WHAT THEY ARE SAYING. THEY HAVE BEEN SAYING MANY THINGS FOR DECADES NOW. SEVEN DECADES. IF NOT MORE. BRENDAN ASKED ME TODAY, VIA TEXT MESSAGE, WHAT I PLAN TO DO ABOUT THE MARKETING AND PROMOTION OF THIS ART PORTFOLIO? NOT THINKING ABOUT IT ALL REALLY. IN ALL ACTUALITY. IT WILL SERVE AS NOTHING MORE THAN A SERIOUS ROADBLOCK. AS A CREATIVE ARTIST, MY ONLY JOB IS TO MAKE THE FREE THROW. WHATEVER THE SHOT IS, MAKE IT. THE PROJECT IS THE SHOT. MAKE THE SHOT. ONLY THE SHOT MATTERS. THE SHOT, THE ONLY MATTERING FACTOR. AS AN ARTIST, I ONLY HAVE ONE JOB. MANY RESPONSIBILITIES I MUST HANDLED CONCERNING THE CRAFT. ALL RESPONSIBILITIES ACTUALLY. ANY OTHERS MUST BE DELEGATED TO THOSE ON THE PAYROLL. THE RIDDLE WASN'T HOW I WOULD GO ABOUT THE MARKETING. i WOULD GO ABOUT THE MARKETING BY HIRING MARKETERS. PUT THE SPECIALIST TEAM YOU NEED AROUND YOU ON THE PAYROLL. THIS SIMPLE. AT 25 YEARS OLD I WAS AT SUCH THOUGHT LEVELS. ONCE I WROTE "CFK" I WAS ABLE TO REALIZE I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO FUND THE PROJECTS MYSELF. HENCE THE FINANCIAL WORLD OF INVESTING I NOW FIND MYSELF EXPLORING. I AM SO GRATEFUL I AM STILL ALIVE. I THANK GOD FOR MY LIFE. I DON'T THINK ABOUT THE HOO RAH OF IT ALL. THE FLASHING LIGHTS. THE MEDIA. THE OSCARS. THE HOLLYWOOD WALK OF FAME. I FOUND A WAY TO SKIP THE LIGHTS AND THE MEDIA. STRAIGHT OSCAR STATUETTES AND THE STAR WALK POSITION. 

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7:18 AM EST - 7:54AM EST
THURSDAY APRIL 23RD, 2020
4.23.2020 -
4.24.2020 -
11:23PM EST - 11:55PM EST
FRIDAY APRIL 24TH, 2020
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CHAPTER SEVEN: THE DEPRESS IS MY BEST FRIEND

 I STARTED A NEW FILM SCRIPT YESTERDAY MORNING. "FROM THE GET GO" "NAIJAH FOURLEAF CLOVER" IS THE PEN NAME. THE PEN NAME IS CREATED IN HONOR OF NAIJAH GROVER SR. R.I.P. TO NAIJAH GROVER SR. THIS IS THE BEST I CAN DO. TO HONOR MY FALLEN COMRADES WITH MY ART. GIVING THEIR NAME THE CREDIT. MY NAME NEED NOT BE ON THE BOOK PENNED BY MY OWN. I GAVE AWAY THE CREDIT. THE SPOTLIGHT. I DON'T WANT THE SPOTLIGHT. I WOULD PREFER TO SHADOW OPERATE. THE SHADOW GOVEY DOESN'T REAR IT'S UGLY FACE...SO WHY SHOULD I? THE GOAL IS TO WIN. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO WIN? CREATE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. CREATE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. SEEK NO SPOTLIGHT. UNDERPLAY ALL ACCOMPLISHMENTS IN ANY SPOTLIGHT. GIVE ALL SPOTLIGHT AWAY. SHARE ALL SPOTLIGHT. TOTALLY IGNORE THE QUESTION YOU CAN'T ANSWER WITH TALK OF SOMEONE DEAR TO YOU. PUT OTHERS ON WITH YOUR SPOTLIGHT. OTHER THAN THAT, DENY EVERYTHING. A MAN LIKE YOU CAN'T GO ON THE BREAKFAST CLUB. IF I GO TO ANGELA YE SHE'S GOING TO LOVE ME. I WILL GO TO INTERVIEWS AS AN ACTOR WITH SCRIPT. I WILL BRING AN ACTOR IN A SUIT, TO PLAY MY LAWYER. EVERY QUESTION I CAN'T ANSWER, I'LL THROW A SIGN. THEN HE WILL WHISPER IN MY EAR. THEN I WILL REPEAT HIS WORDS. "COUNSEL HAS ADVISED I DON'T VERBALLY ENTER SUCH TERRITORY." I ENJOY MY LIFE. I JUST WANT TO KEEP IT SIMPLE. I WAS WILLING TO SACRIFICE ANY SUCCESS FROM THE CRAFT I GAVE MY LIFE TO. I GAVE MY LIFE TO LITERARY HISTORY. I GAVE UP MY PERSONAL LIFE TO ATTAIN INCLUSION. LITERARY HISTORY INCLUSION. I GAVE UP EVERYTHING. I HAVE NOTHING ELSE. I ONLY HAVE TEN THOUSAND FILES. MAYBE 5000 HOURS. YOU CAN'T CONTROL ANOTHER PERSON. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOURSELF. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR FOCUS. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR ATTENTION. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR AMBITION. I CAN CONTROL MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY. SPENDING YEARS PUBLISHING BOOKS, I WILL NEVER REGRET. I CAN NOT RISK LOSING MOMENTUM WHILE INSIDE A DOOMED RELATIONSHIP. I AM MORE CURIOUS OF OTHER IDEAS THAN OTHER PEOPLE. I AM A MAN OF IDEAS. I AM DRAWN TO IDEAS. I WANT TO HEAR SOME IDEAS. WE AS PEOPLE ARE IDEA CREATORS. SO IF YOU HAVE NO IDEAS, WHY HAVE A BRAIN? 4.24.2020 - 11:23PM EST - 11:55PM EST THE DEPRESSION IS MY BEST FRIEND. IT IS ALL I HAVE. THE PAIN INSIDE, IS NOT REAL. IT'S REAL. BUT IT'S NOT REAL. IT'S INSIDE. THE INSIDE CREATES THE OUTSIDE. THE OUTSIDE AFFECTS THE INSIDE. THE INSIDE AFFECTS THE OUTSIDE. DO YOU KNOW WHAT I SAY? EXTERNAL EVENTS CAUSE MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL EVENTS. EMOTIONAL THOUGHTS FOCUSED AND DIRECTED, CREATE REALITIES. THE DEPRESSING THOUGHTS ATTACK ME. ONE PERSPECTIVE. PERSPECTIVE NUMBER TWO: THE DEPRESSING THOUGHTS CHASE ME TO THE PATH OF PROLIFIC ART PORTFOLIOS. IT ALL STARTED WITH THE DESIRE FOR THE LEGENDARY ARTISTIC PORTFOLIO. FROM 20 YEARS ON TO NOW. AT 30, THE FIRST PORTFOLIO IS DONE. THE CREATIVE PORTFOLIO IS DONE. THE NEXT PORTFOLIO, PORTFOLIO NUMBER TWO, IS THE NEXT DESIRE. THE ECONOMIC PORTFOLIO. THE NEST EGG. THE FINANCING OF CHADXZAVIERFILMS. DAVIDXCRICHTON PUBLISHING. VANESSA B. STALLONE PRODUCTIONS. CLOVER MEDIA. ROCKMAN INC. THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE TO DO. THE DEPRESSION MADE IT SO EASY. THIS MAKES EVERYTHING SO EASY. I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN, I CAN CREATE MY OWN REALITY. I PAY THE PRICE. EVERY DAY. EVERY SINGLE DAY. THE PAIN KEEPS ME HUMBLE. THE EGO'S AT BAY. THE EGO CAN ONLY THINK. EGO CAN NOT ACT WITHOUT MY PERMISSION. THE DEPRESSIONS MAKE THE EGO LESS APPEALING TO HUMOR. NEVER HUMOR THE EGO. BE AS NICE TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS YOU FUCKING CAN. YOUR LIFE IS ON THE LINE. I AM GLAD I CAN LOOK AT SUCH A THING IN SUCH A WAY. ON SUCH A DAY. IT IS THE FEELING OF FEELINGS YOU WOULDN'T ALWAYS WANT TO ADMIT TO. HOW CAN I BEAR YOU TO CONTINUE TO LOOK AT ME, WHEN I ADMITTED HOW I TRULY FEEL ON THE INSIDE? DID IT AFFECT HOW YOU SEE ME NOW? I'M NOT ASHAMED OF HOW I FEEL BC I FEEL IT. IT'S ALREADY HERE. I AM ASHAMED IT EVEN CAME AT ALL. I AM ASHAMED OF WHAT TRANSPIRED EMOTIONALLY. IN EXCHANGE, MY BUCKET LIST WAS MY LIFE. I LIVED MY BUCKET LIST. I HAVE NO ANGER TOWARDS THE COSMOS. THE UNIVERSE. I AM AN ADMIRAL IN THE UNIVERSAL SPACE NAVY. IT'S JUST A HARD PILL SOMETIMES. I'VE BEEN AT THIS SO LONG, IT IS STARTING TO FEEL LIKE A MOVIE ROLE ITSELF. I AM PLAYING ME. I AM CHASING THIS ONE GOAL. THIS ONE FILM. ALL ABOUT THIS ONE MAN CHASING THIS ONE DREAM, IS IN ONE FILM. WHAT GENRE? DRAMEDY. YOU FEEL SO NOT APPRECIATED IN YOUR PERSONAL LIFE. YOUR FAMILY LIFE. BEING 30. NO CREATED FAMILY OF YOUR OWN. YOU CAN LNLY SEEK APPRECIATION FROM YOUR EFFORTS IN YOUR CHOSEN INDUSTRY. I FEEL AS IF I CHOSE WRITING AND FILMMAKING. I CHOSE FILMMAKING. NOVELIST. FILM EDITING. DIRECTING. SCREEN WRITE. I WAS CHOSEN TO WRITE. I CHOSE THE FILM DIRECTION. PUNNING? PUNNING! I WAS THE BORN WRITER. MAYBE BORN FILMMAKER I DO NOT KNOW. I CHOSE FILMMAKING MYSELF. MAYBE IT WAS CHOSEN FOR ME TO CHOOSE IT. I APPRECIATE MY LIFE. THIS FILM ENTRY, SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL 2020 ENTRY, THE FIRST EVER FESTIVAL ENTRY. I HAVE MADE NO ACTS TO GET A DEAL. SPIRITUALLY I CAN ACCEPT NEVER SEEING RESULTS FROM THE INDUSTRY ITSELF. THE INDUSTRY CHOSEN FOR ME IS RUN BY THE DEVIL AND I AM A MAN OF GOD SO I HAD TO LET GO THE DESIRE FOR NOTICE. NO NOTICE. JUST ACTION. NO FLASHING LIGHTS. JUST TYPING A NEW BOOK FROM SCRATCH IN THE KITCHEN. SCRATCHING THE KITCHEN. CHICKEN SCRATCH IN THE KITCHEN. 

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1:29AM EST - 1:52AM
5.1.2020
FRIDAY MAY 1ST, 2020
CHAPTER EIGHT: MY BEST FRIEND INDEED

 ALL I THINK ABOUT IS WORKING ON MY CRAFT. THE ONLY THOUGHT PRE DOMINANT WITHIN IS WORKING ON THE CRAFT. ENDLESSLY BEATING ON THE CRAFT. WRITING AND PUBLISHING AS MANY NOVELS AS I CAN PER YEAR. RECORDING AS MANY AUDIO FILES IMPROMPTU AS I CAN. READING AS MANY PROFESSIONAL HOLLYWOOD CLASSIC SCRIPTS ON TAPE AS I CAN PER YEAR. READING SHAKESPEARE ON TAPE. EDITING VIDEOS FOR MY TWO YOUTUBE CHANNELS. INVESTING $10 IN FOREX AND TRADING IT TO $1000 PER WEEK. INVESTING $1000 PER WEEK OR MONTH IN STOCKS AND CRYPTO. INVESTING IN REAL ESTATE WITH THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING PROFITS. RESEARCHING FINANCE IS WHAT I THINK ABOUT AND DESIRE. WRITING NOVELS FROM THE RESEARCH ON FINANCE IS WHAT I WORK TOWARDS. WRITING HELPFUL MATERIAL AND PUBLISHING IT FOR POSTERITY AND LONGEVITY IS WHAT I DESIRE. WHAT I PURSUE? LITERARY HISTORY. A CINEMATIC LEGEND IN THE LITERATURE AND CINEMA INDUSTRY. I PUT ALL OF MY EFFORT IN MY SPARE TIME INTO THESE EFFORTS. THESE PROJECTS. THIS FILE CREATION PROCESS. THE DOCUMENTATION OF MY ADULT LIFE. MY PERSONAL TIME DIARIES. MY TIME CAPSULE LEFT TO THE WORLD TO WATCH ONE DAY. I USE THIS PROCESS TO SPEND MY TIME. TO INVEST ALL OF MY SPARE TIME INTO THE ACCELERATION OF THE MY SKILL SET. TO BEAT ON THE CRAFT. THE ART FORM. CINEMA AND LITERATURE. TWO CONNECTED INDUSTRIES. TWO CHALLENGES TO CONQUER. USING LITERATURE TO SOLIDIFY THE ENTRY ONE DAY INTO HOLLYWOOD. MY TEN YEAR OLD VIDEO FILE COLLECTION SHOWS MY DOCUMENTATION AND EDITING SKILLS. THE ABILITY TO CAPTURE INTERESTING FOOTAGE AND EDIT IT. THE PROCESS OF CREATING CONCEPTS FOR SKITS ND EPISODES OF NEW SERIES CREATED. THE FIVE YEAR DAVID X. CRICHTON LITERARY PORTFOLIO SHOWS THE ABILITY TO WRITE A PROFESSIONAL NOVEL AND FILM SCRIPT. THE FIVE YEAR AUDIO FILE AND AUDIO BOOK COLLECTION SHOWS THE IMPROMPTU SKILLS. FREESTYLING FILM SCRIPTS, IN FORMAT, ON AUDIO. FREESTYLING NOVELS, IN FORMAT, ON AUDIO. ON THE INSIDE, I AM JUST BROKEN INSIDE. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO KEEP THE DEPRESSION AT BAY BUT TO RELEASE ALL FRUSTRATION THRU THE PROCESS OF CONSTANT CREATION. NON STOP. TO PUNISH THE PAIN. TO PUNISH THE EGO. I SIT IN ONE SPOT AND FOCUS. I SHOW MY MIND WHO IS IN CHARGE. I HAVE TO STOP NOW TO SHOWER AND GET MY CLOTHES FROM THE DRYER DOWNSTAIRS. I HAVE TO WORK OVERTIME TOMORROW, CLOCKING IN EARLY. I HAVE TO WRAP THE CREATIVE SESSION UP EARLY TONIGHT. JUST THINKING ABOUT NOT CREATING FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT MAKES ME SAD. I HAVE TO FACE THE SADNESS WHEN I AM NOT CREATING. CREATING IS MY WAY OF FIGHTING BACK. I'LL BE BACK. THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING IT THIS FAR IN THE PUBLICATION. 

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5.2.2020
MAY 2ND, 2020
5.3. 2020
SUNDAY MAY 3RD, 2020
8:28AM EST - 9:12AM EST
TUESDAY MAY 5TH, 2020
5.5.2020
CINCO DE MAYO
1:51AM EST - 2:39AM EST
9:09PM EST - 9:41PM EST
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CHAPTER NINE: SKIDLY DO

I HAVE GIVEN MY CHILDHOOD INTEREST, TO MY ADULTHOOD. THIS DOCUMENTARY IS A TIMESTAMP OF MY ADULTHOOD. MY TWENTIES. TWO YEARS FROM 2011 TO 2013, THIS ENTRY WON'T HAVE THAT FOOTAGE. FROM 2013 FOOTAGE ON I AM USING. TODAY IS SUNDAY. THE FOREX MARKET OPENS TODAY. 6PM. UNTIL FRIDAY AT 5PM. 120 HOURS. THREE TRADES ON THE LINE. THE MONEY LINE. GREAT BRITISH POUND U.S. DOLLAR. BUY. 24990. IN ONE ACCOUNT. THE OTHER ACCOUNT. TWO TRADES. BUY. AUDNZD. FOREIGN ON FOREIGN. EXOTICS. BUY ALL WEEK FROM HERE. SELL AT 500 POINTS OVER THE NEXT ZERO POINT UP. GBPUSD SELL UNTIL THE CURRENT ZERO POINT. 25. SELL TO 26 ZERO POINT. SELL AT 26900 TO 26150. SELL AT 27 ZERO POINT. AUDNZD. MUCH SIMPLER. BUY ALL WEEK. SELL AT 500 OVER NEXT ZERO POINT. UNTIL CURRENT ZERO POINT. WEEK OVER. BASED ON NOTES. THE DEADLINE FOR THIS ENTRY IS JUNE 2020. THE TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF TRADING CURRENCY. IN 2013, I PURCHASED FOR $88 A PIECE, THREE BTC. BITCOINS. I SOLD TOO EARLY. IMMEDIATELY. IN 2015, AFTER WRITING "CFK 1-6" I REALIZED I HAD TO FUND MY ART MYSELF. I DID NOT WANT TO RELY ON THE ART I CREATED FOR SUSTAINING A LIVING. I WANTED SUCH A FACTOR OUT OF THE EQUATION. I WOULD PREFER RATHER. INVESTING MONEY INTO THE ART INSTEAD. THE MONEY FROM THE BOOKS? INVEST IT. STOCKS. REAL ESTATE. BONDS. ASSETS. DIGITAL ASSETS. GIVE HALF OF THE PROFITS AWAY. TO PEOPLE WAY LESS MATERIALLY ABUNDANT. (TUESDAY 5.5.2020 CINCO DE MAYO 1:51AM EST - 2:39AM EST) CHAPTER NINE. HALFWAY THRU THIS PUBLICATION. VOLUME THREE. MONEY PROBLEMS. HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS. THE CHADFILMS ORIGIN STORY/ THE SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL ENTRY. 2020. AUDIO NARRATION. THIS IS NEARING THE END. THE BOOK CONTINUES. FOR ANOTHER TEN CHAPTERS MINUMUM. 15 CHAPTERS MAX. THE FESTIVAL ENTRY. THE DOCUMENTARY. CONTAINS THIRTY MINUTES OF FOOTAGE USING ON SCREEN AUDIO. THIS IS MY FIRST FILM FESTIVAL ENTRY. EVER. I WANT TO SUBMIT THIS, FOR MY OWN GRATIFICATION. FOR ME TO BE AT PEACE KNOWING I FINALLY SUBMITTED A CREATION. I'VE BEEN IN THE CREATIVE DUNGEON FOR A DECADE. IT'S BEAUTIFUL. CLEVERLAND IS A REAL PLACE. YOU CAN ONLY GET THERE ONE WAY. THRU YOUR MIND. THERE'S A THRESHOLD OF CREATIVITY WITHIN YOU. WHEN YOU BREACH THIS LINE, YOU ACCESS CLEVERLAND. BREACH THE LINE OF COURSE. TEACH THE FINER COURSE. IN 2015 I BREACHED THE LINE. THE COMMERCIAL PUBLICATIONS HAVE BEEN POURING OUT SINCE. SYRACUSE HAD A FILM FESTIVAL WHILE I WAS LIVING THERE. I ENTERED THE FESTIVAL. I LOOK FORWARD TO WATCHING MY ENTRY INITIALLY. R.I.P. TO FLIGHT KOBE. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD I AM STILL ALIVE. I GAVE MY LIFE TO MY GOD GIVEN TALENTS. THE PURSUIT OF THE GIFTS. I'VE BEEN AN ARTIST STARVING FOR ONE DECADE. HALF A DECADE MORE AND I'M THE OVERNIGHT SUCCESS STORY. OVERNIGHT MY GRASS. 

(9:09PM EST - 9:41PM EST)

 HERE IS WHERE THE WRITING ITINERARY IS GOING. THIS IS VOLUME THREE OF HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS. THE VANESSA BUNNI STALLONE PEN NAME. THE VANESSA STALLONE PORTFOLIO. HER CATALOGUE. THE DEBUT PROJECT. THIS PROJECT. HER DEBUT. THE NAIJAH CLOVER AND JOSH ROCKMAN DEBUTS ARE NEXT. I WILL WRITE BACK AND FORTH FOR EACH CATALOGUE. FOR EACH PEN NAME. I WILL PUBLISH THE ANNUAL COLLECTIONS UNDER A COMBINED AND CREATED PEN NAME. CLOVER S. ROCKMAN. CLOVER STALLONE. THE 2020 COLLECTION ISN'T DAVID CRICHTON'S AT ALL. DAVID CRICHTON IS OFFICIALLY RETIRED. I GAVE AWAY DEBUTS FOR STALLONE TO CRICHTON. OR I LET CRICHTON KEEP THOSE IDEAS. FROM 2017 ON I WAS PREPARING TO RETIRE CRICHTON. THE TIME WAS JUST TAKING IT'S TIME PASSING. I FEEL AS IF THE DXC PORTFOLIO IS HALL OF FAME BOUND. I'M UTTERLY REASSURED ABOUT IT. EVERY PUBLICATION UP TO THIS ONE WAS DAVID CRICHTON. NOW VANESSA STALLONE HAS HER TURN. CLOVER ROCKMAN IS NEXT. NAIJAH CLOVER AND JOSH D. ROCKMAN ARE THE NEXT PEN NAMES. THE LITERARY DIRECTION. I DON'T LIKE DRAMA. I WRITE DRAMA. A GOTHIC LITERATURE PIECE IS NEXT. DAVID CRICHTON HAS A FILM SCRIPT "GOYLE". GOTHIC LITERATURE INSPIRED. AN IDEA GIVEN TO ME FROM A FRIEND TO SEE WHAT SPIN I PUT ON IT. I WAS RESEARCHING GOTHIC LITERATURE AROUND THE TIME. RECENTLY I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT AGAIN. I WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING WITH DESCRIPTIVE DETAILS. NOT JUST FIRST PERSON DIARY ENTRY PERSPECTIVE ANYMORE. THAT'S DAVID CRICHTON. NOW, LET US GO FOR SECOND AND THIRD PERSON PERSPECTIVE. BEING DESCRIPTIVE USING ANALOGIES. THE LITERARY ELEMENTS AND DEVICES. THE POETIC ELEMENTS AND DEVICES. A LIST OF ADJECTIVES. I WILL CREATE MY OWN BOOK OF PROMPTS TO USE TO CREATE MY NEXT PUBLICATIONS. THE DAVID CRICHTON FORMULA, IS ABOUT TO BE PUBLISHED IN ITSELF. 

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CHAPTER TEN: EXTREMELY
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11:19PM EST - 12:02AM EST
TUESDAY MAY 5TH, 2020
5.5.2020 -
WEDNESDAY MAY 6TH, 2020
5.6.2020
10:37PM EST -
SATURDAY MAY 9TH, 2020
5.9.2020
"NEEDS MORE DRAGONS"
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: THE INTRODUCTION
HE WOKE UP IN THE CASTLE. DAY 30. THE SAME CASTLE. PECULIAR IN IT'S SMELL. FAMILIAR IN THE TASTE OF FOOD. THE BEDS. CHANGE. THE ROOMS CHANGE. THE WOOD SMELLED OF PAINT. FRESH PAINT. PAINTED RIGHT BEFORE HE WAS BROUGHT HERE. THE CASTLE ON THE ISLAND. HIT BY HURRICANES THRU THE NIGHT. TORNADOS DURING THE DAY. OUTSIDE OF THE CASTLES. THE FIELD. DON'T GO INTO THE FIELD. GHOSTS FLOAT ABOVE THE GROUND. THE BODIES OF THE GHOSTED, LITTERED INDISCRIMINATELY ALONG THE DUSTY LAWN. DRAGON BREATH. SCORCHED SALIVA. THE SMELL OF SUCH SEEPS THRU THE SPACED BARS. HE RARELY EVER GOES TO THE WINDOW SPACE. THE BARS. THERE ARE SCREAMS FROM THE OUTSIDE. A QUARTER OF THE TIME. THERE ARE SCREAMS FROM THE INSIDE OF THE CASTLE. HALF OF THE TIME. THE ROOM IS ONLY EVER WARM, FROM THE DRAGON BREATH. BOGS. THE ENVIRONMENTS CHANGE INBETWEEN SLEEPING. HE HAS BEGAN TO GET USED TO THESE THINGS. HE WAS USED TO ISOLATION. NE'ER THIS MUCH ISOLATION. NEVERTHELESS, HE IS IN MORE ISOLATION THAN ANYONE OUTSIDE OF OUR BOUNDARIES. I WATCH HIM ALL DAY. I AM PAID, TO WATCH HIM, DAILY. I AM PAID, TO SEE HIM THRU TO THE DAY, FOR WHICH HE WAS BROUGHT HERE FOR.

 DAY ONE: THE DOOR WAS OPENED LOUDLY. WITH NO REMORSE. THE BANG ECHOED. BY THE TIME THE RINGING STOPPED. HE WAS THROWN ONTO THE FLOOR. I DON'T KNOW WHO DID IT. I ONLY SAW HIM START TO GET UP. HE WIGGLED. THE CHAIN WAS ATTACHED TO HIS FOOT. THE RIGHT ANKLE. WITH A CUSHION. THE CHAIN LENGTH LONG ENOUGH TO LEAVE THE ROOM. HE DID NOT FOLLOW THE GUARDS BACK OUT OF THE ROOM AFTER THEY HAD LEFT. 

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 HE HIT THE GROUND SO HARD, HE TOOK A NAP. A THIRTY MINUTE NAP. HE AWOKE. TO A FIGURE. IN THE SHADOWS. OF THE DEEPEST CORNER, OF HIS ROOM. HIS ROOM WAS VAST. HE NOTICED. AS HE LOOKED AROUND. OBSERVING. WHAT HIS NEW HOME HAD TO OFFER. WITNESSING THE SPLENDORS. OF THE CASTLE. WHATEVER THEY WERE. SO FAR. THE FIGURE APPROACHED FROM THE SHADOWS. HE EXTENDED HIS ARM TO BRUTUS. "I'M DRACO." BRUTUS (OFF SCREEN) 

DRACO TOLD ME. THE TRUTH. HE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME. HE WILL ALWAYS FEAST UPON MY GREATEST FEARS. MY GREATEST INHIBITIONS. HE WOULD ALWAYS EXPLOIT THEM. TO HIS FULLEST ADVANTAGE. THE VAMPIRIC PSYCHIC OPERATIVE. DRACULA. THE PSYCHIC VAMPIRE. MORE LIKE CALIGULA. IN THE FEELING. HE ADMITTED. HE IS HERE TO STAY. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO RID MYSELF OF HIS PRESENCE. HE HAS BEEN AROUND ME ALREADY. FOR THE LAST TWELVE YEARS. HE HAS JUST BEEN UNCOVERED BY THE PYSCHE ITSELF, AFTER A 12 YEAR PERIOD OF SNUGGLING COMFORTABLY, INSIDE MY HEAD. HE AIMS TO DESTROY ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

BRUTUS WALKED TO THE WINDOW SPACE. THE WINDOW SPACE FILLED WITH BARS. HE STARED OUT THERE. CONTEMPLATING. ON THE WORDS. HE NOTICED FOG FEVERISHLY FLEEING THE FORTRESS. TURNING AROUND TO BURNING. NO SMOKE. NO JOKE. THE DRACULA BLOKE. SLIPPED AWAY ALMOST SILENTLY. EGG YOLK. 

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9:21PM EST - 9:58PM EST
WEDNESDAY MAY 6TH, 2020
5.6.2020
10:50PM EST - 11:15PM EST
SATURDAY MAY 9TH, 2020
5.9.2020
SOUTHERN GOTH
SOUTHERN CLOTH
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THEY ALL SAT IN THE LIVING ROOM. THE PLUSH, LIVING ROOM. THE WAR. THE WAR HAD JUST ENDED. OUR LABOR FORCE IS GONE. OUR LABORERS. OUR LABORERS ARE GONE. "THIS HAS BEEN THE WORST DECADE. FOR ME. FOR US. MY FAMILY. REPAIRING DESTRUCTION WITHOUT OUR PROPERTY". THE FAMILY. ENTERS THE LIVING ROOM. LILY LIVIDLY LENDED HER LIKENESS. THE SHADES WERE SHAFTED. RETRACTED. WITH REAL TACT. THEY WERE DISTRACTING. WE ALL STOOD IN THE CENTER. OVER THE CARPET. PERSIAN.
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 LILY MAY. MARY TONNIE. SUSIE DEAN. LULA MAE. ANNE MIG. CONNIE. ALL SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM. THE SHADES DRAWN. DARKNESS LAYING DEEP WITHIN THE LAIR. THE LAYERS OF TRUTH. EMANATING. FROM THE MOUTH OF CAESAR. CEASAR. KAISER. RICE. "THE SOUTH LOST THE WAR." LULA MAE - "THE SOUTH LOST THE BATTLE." CEASAR - "THE SOUTH LOST THE ENTIRE WAR, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? THEY SURRENDERED." LULA MAE STANDS UP. SWISHING THE BEVERAGE AROUND WITHIN THE CUP. SMELLS THE DRINK. LOOKS UP AT CEASAR. SMILING. "THE ENTIRE WAR YOU SPEAK OF, IS A MERE BATTLE IN THE ONGOING WAR." CEASAR. "YOU MEAN THE WAR THAT WILL NEVER END?" LULA MAE. "EXACTLY. THE NEVER ENDING WAR." LILY MAY. "SO IF THE WAR ENDED AND OUR SIDE SURRENDERED, WE, CONTINUING THE WAR EFFORTS IN A NEW WAR, WOULD HAVE TO BE DOING SO IN A WAR OF SECRET MISSIONS?" ANNE MIG. LOOKS AT LILY MAY. LOOKS BACK TO LULA MAE AND CEASAR RICE. "SO WHAT IS THE NEXT MISSION?" (5.9.2020 10:51PM EST - 11:15PM EST) CONNIE STOOD UP. "THE ONLY THING THAT WILL SEE US THRU THIS, IS TO REALIZE. TO REALIZE ONE THING. ONE THING ONLY. WE DID NOT LOSE THE WAR. OUR ALLEGIANTS. OUR ALLIES. OUR SOUTHERN REBELS. DIED AS FIGHTERS. SOLDIERS. FIGHTING ON THE FRONTLINES. OF AMERICA. OUR PRECIOUS AMERICA. NOW IN OUR OWN PRECIOUS LAND, WE ARE THE REBELS. THIS I CAN NOT TAKE. THIS I WILL NOT STAND FOR. NOTHING OF THIS SORT WAS EVER MEANT TO HAPPEN. THE PREVIOUS GENERATION OF ALLIES DIED AS SOLDIERS. THE WAR WAS FOUGHT IN OPEN WAR FARE. ACTUAL WARFARE WAS NEFARIOUSLY DECLARED. THE NEXT BATTLES. WILL NOT BE FOUGHT IN OPEN FIELDS. THEY WILL BE FOUGHT IN OPEN COURT. IN OPEN SESSIONS OF CONGRESS. THE SENATE. THE GOVERNORSHIP. THE LEGAL SYSTEM. WE WILL CONTROL THE HANDCUFFS. WE CONTROL THE BADGES. WE WILL CONTROL THE WEAPONS. THE FIREARMS. THE TASERS. THE BILLY CLUBS. THE STARS ON THE BADGE WILL NOT CHANGE. ONLY THE WORDS WILL. TO 'PROTECT AND SERVE THE PLANTATION'. EXTRACT THE WORD 'PLANTATION'. 'THE SLAVE PATROL BADGE' FOR THE 'SHERIFF'S BADGE'. WE WILL WIN THE WAR. THERE WAS A NEW LAW PASSED. PREVENTING CITIZENS FROM SLAVERY. UNDER ONE CONDITION. WE SHALL EXPLOIT THIS CONDITION. WE WON'T SEE OUR PLAN MANIFEST IN FULL. BY THE END OF THE DAY. WE WILL GET OUR SLAVES BACK. WE WILL ENSLAVE THE ENTIRE NATION. THE SAME NIGGERLOVERS. WE WILL ENSLAVE THEIR ENTIRE FAMILY. IT WILL TAKE SOME TIME. JUST TO FIGURE OUT THE POLICY. IN FULL. THE MASTER POLICY. 'MASTER POLICY?' THE RE ENSLAVEMENT POLICY. WE WILL CREATE JAILS. PRISONS. THREATEN THE VOTE GETTERS TO GET THE CRIME RIDDEN NEGROES OUT OF OUR STREETS. WE WILL INCARCERATE THEM. THEY WILL ROT IN PRISON CELLS. ALL ACROSS AMERICA. WE WILL PURCHASE PRISONS. JAILS. WE SHALL OWN THEM ALL. ONE PRISON EVERY THOUSAND MILES. UNTIL WE CAN DO BETTER. WE WILL WIN THE SHERIFF'S RACE. THE ELECTIONS. WE WILL WIN THEM ALL. DEMOCRATS. REPUBLICANS. MANDATORY MINIMUM SENTENCES. FOR REPEAT OFFENDERS. OF CRIMES FOR MONEY. FILL THE POPULATION AREAS WITH CRIME. SO MUCH CRIME THE HOUSE VALUES PLUMMET. GET THEM ON THE STREETS. THEM PUT THEM IN THE PRISONS. OWN THE PRISONS. GET MORE INVESTORS TO BUILD MORE PRISONS. SHARE THE PROFITS TO INVESTORS. ALL OF THE LEGITIMATE NEGROES. WE NEED TO MAKE THE DOLLARS WORTHLESS. SOME HOW AND SOME WAY. WE WILL DETACH THE GOLD FROM THE DOLLAR. AND STEAL ALL OF THE GOLD. HIDE THE GOLD IN A BUILDING. HUNDREDS OF YEARS LATER. THEN BLOW UP THE BUILDING DECADES LATER. THEY ALL STARTED LAUGHING. HILARIOUS HILARITY WAS NO SCARCITY. THE WINTER CHILL FILLS THE ROOM. WITH GLOOM AND DOOM. THE FOG OF THE VISION. SUCH A CLEAR VISION. BUT A CLEAR VISION HEADING FOR DISASTER. WHY BE SO VAMPIRIC? 

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8:19AM EST - 8:45AM EST
MAY 17TH, 2020
5.17.2020
SHORT STORY
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THE INTRODUCTION: BAD HABIT MONEY

 WHAT YOU MAY NOT REALIZE UNTIL AGE THIRTY? YOU SQUANDERED YOUR YOUNG ADULT INCOME, YOUR CHANCE FOR WEALTH CREATION, ON HABITS. ROUTINES. BAD HABITS. BAD ROUTINES. BEER, TOBACCO, MARIJUANA, BEING A PILL POPPING ANIMAL, ALL HAVE SIDE EFFECTS. ADVERSE EFFECTS. FINANCIAL SIDE EFFECTS. FINANCIALLY ADVERSE BEHAVIOR. EVERY DOLLAR SPENT ON A PACK OF RELLOS. EVERY SINGLE DOLLAR SPENT NOT ON RENT OR FOOD IS A WASTE. A TERRIBLE. THE WORST KIND OF WASTE. HORRIBLE TASTING WASTE. HORRIBLY TASTY. TERRIBLY HORRIBLE. YOU'RE GOING TO WASTE EVERY DOLLAR YOU EARN ON BULL SPIT AND FUN. THE DOLLAR IS A GAME. A SICK GAME. ACQUISITION AND INFLATION. PURSUING THE OPPORTUNITY TO ACQUIRE SOMETHING THAT IS IN FACT INFLATING, BY NATURE. BY DESIGN. NATURAL PHENOMENA MY GRASS. PHENOMENA BY DESIGN. FRED HAMPTON. YOU WERE NEVER FORGOTTEN. WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW AT TWENTY, EIGHT TEEN, NINE TEEN, YOUR YOUTHFUL PRIME, WAS THE TIME PERIOD TO ESTABLISH THE FOUNDATIONAL SEEDS OF GENERATIONAL WEALTH. AT TWENTY, RIGHT OVER YOUR HEAD. IT IS SO SAD TO ME, I DO NOT EVEN WANT TO KEEP WRITING ABOUT THIS. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LISTEN. IF YOU ARE OVER 25, YOU ARE AT THE PRE FORK IN THE ROAD. THE FORK IN THE ROAD IS AGE THIRTY. IF YOU CAN BEND THE FORK PROPERLY DIRECTED BY AGE 25, YOU ARE AHEAD BY SO MANY YEARS IN THE TIMELINE. IT IS ALWAYS CHESS OVER CHECKERS. I LOVE CHECKERS. WITH CHESS HOWEVER, HE WHO CONTROLS THE MIDDLE FOUR SQUARES, CONTROLS THE GAME. FRESH OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL, YOU'RE MORE THAN LIKELY DESTINED TO MAKE DAM NEAR EVERY MISTAKE IN THE BOOK TWICE. THAT'S A BACK TO BACK REPEAT. THE NATIONAL CHAMPIONAHIP. THE NATIONAL DONKEY OF THE YEAR CHAMPIONSHIP. IT IS SIMPLE. REAL SIMPLE. REALLY SIMPLE. EXTREMELY SO. IF SOMEONE WANTS SOMETHING FROM LIFE, THEY WON'T SEEK ANYTHING ELSE. WHATEVER YOU SEEK, YOU SHALL FIND. I GET IT NOW. YOU WILL BE SHOWN BY LIFE, FROM EXPERIENCES, MEMORIES, MOMENTS, EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE IN FACT LOOKING FOR. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT INFORMATION IF OFFERED TO YOU, IF YOU'RE NOT LOOKING FOR THAT, YOU WON'T EVEN REGISTER THE OPTICALS. THE OPTICS. YOU WILL NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING AT. IT WILL BE AS IF YOU CAN'T EVEN READ THE LANGUAGE BUT YOU'LL SWEAR THE EXPERT. I GET IT NOW. THE ONLY PERSON YOU NEED TO HELP YOU SUCCEED, IS YOURSELF. IF YOU DESIRE SUCCESS FROM YOUR LIFE, YOU WON'T DESIRE A DAM THING ELSE. NOT ONE OTHER CIRCUMSTANCE. YOU DESERVE WHATEVER YOU PURSUE. IF YOU PURSUE NOTHING ELSE THEN DOUBLY SO YOU DESERVE IT. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU PURSUE. MAK SURE IT IS REALLY IN TRUTH WHAT YOU WANT. WHEN YOU'RE READY FOR WHAT I CAN OFFER YOU IN THOUGHTS, THIS BOOK WILL APPEAR. IF YOU FIND THIS BOOK, YOU WILL CHERISH THE DAY. THIS BOOK IS AIMED TO BE THE MOST INFLUENTIAL STRATEGY GUIDE YOU EVER IMPLEMENTED ECONOMICALLY. EVERYONE STARTS AT THE BOTTOM ECONOMICALLY. IF YOU CAN REMAIN DEPENDENT FREE WITH NO ATTACHED BODIES TO YOU, YOU CAN RISE HIGHER AND FASTER OUT OF THE ECONOMIC PIT OF FINANCIALLY DECREPIT NESS. 

Hey, everyone. I have lurked here for a while, and I just wanted to get confirmation that I am not the crazy one here.
I will try to keep this as neutral as possible, I would like honest opinions. I am also going to be kinda vague on the specifics, try to keep this semi - anonymous.
I am the middle child of two sisters. I have older sister (OS) and younger sister (YS). I am 24, OS is 25, YS is 20.The middle child syndrome was real growing up, even my sisters can admit that. Honestly, the only person who denies it is my dad. OS is married and lives with my BIL with their kid. YS and I live at home with our dad. Our parents are divorced since I was in high school. I could go on and on about how it was growing up, but that is not what this post is for.
Alright, so this begins all the way back at Christmas. My dad's girlfriend has moved in with us. YS and I don't really like her. There was some drama when she moved in, and YS never really got over it. So Christmas comes, and I picked out a generic gift and asked my sisters if they wanted to spilt the cost. I told them before I bought it what the approximate cost each would be. They both agreed. I purchased the gift, and told them the cost each. It was actually like a few dollars less. OS had no issues, but all of a sudden YS refused to pay for it. Saying she never agreed to pay that much and she isn't going to pay that much, citing the drama from when girlfriend first moved in. It came out of nowhere, and both OS and I were shocked. She agreed literally the day before to pay the amount, which was about $40.
It caused this huge fight. OS and I were confused by her change of mind. She was fine with it the day before, but now suddenly she is not? YS and I did not talk for a few days, until YS yelled at me for taking a shower that she deemed too long. It was about 30 min, not that long in my opinion. She came home that day in a mood, so I know she wasn't mad at me, she was just looking for a fight. I fell for it, and told her not to take her anger out on me.
That was the wrong thing to say. It blew up into this huge fight. I admit, I said somethings I shouldn't have said. I told her she needed to be medicated (nothing wrong with being medicated, i have a small pharmacy in my room for my own issues) and she wasn't doing anything with her life. At the time, she had no job, wasn't in school, etc. The medicated comment is because OS, mom, and I believe that she is bipolar. She is at the age where it starts to manifest, we have a lot of mental health issues in our family.
She said equally mean things to me, which I don't remember. I know how that sounds, but it's a coping mechanism of mine. If I don't try and block it out, the mean things get stuck in my head on a loop and it sends me into a depressive episode. The next day she goes to moms house, and get in a huge fight with OS and mom. Things that I said to YS in our fight , YS said to OS in thier fight. Mom and YS have always had a strained relationship, so them fighting is honestly nothing new. YS insulted OS child, and OS has cut YS off completely, no contact since then.
Things proceed like this for a while. Little to no talking between YS and I. YS will start acting normal again, and then I will get whiplash, because all of a sudden she is mad at me again. No one can keep up with her mood swings. She talks to her friend on the phone a lot, and within the same phone call she can be laughing, then screaming, then laughing again. She rearranged the entire kitchen at midnight one night because she didn't like the layout, which I think was a manic episode.
Earlier this week, I thought things were ok again. When she starts being nice again, I go along with it cause I am not trying to stress out Dad due to medical issues he is having. She started a new job in the field I work in (a field she insulted me for working in) and I asked her what her job title was. She told me that I was not entitled to any information about her life cause of how I have been treating her. (Note, she is no longer entitled to information about OS) I said ok, I will remember that next time you need something from me. She then proclaimed that I never do anything for her, and that no one ever does anything for her, except dad. At this point I just stopped engaging with her and ignored her. She kept going and called me a psyco (something I called her) until she stomped off to her room.
I am trying to not engage or make things worse, but her comment about me never doing anything for her really bothered me. She took her car to my work to have them take a look at it. She calls me at all hours of the night to kill spiders for her. I check and see if she needs anything if I run out to Walmart or something. I am not saying I do everything for her, but I do things you do for your sisters.
I decided that if she thinks I don't do anything for her, then fine, I'll stop. I pay for the Disney + account, so I kicked her off of it. Paying for the account and letting her use it would be doing something for her, so no more of that. My dad got mad at me when he found out about that, not really sure why. He called me the other day because YS asked him for the password. Didn't even ask me, the one who pays for the account, for the password. She tried to sneak around me and ask dad for the password. I told him no, she is not allowed to use my account. As far as I know, he is now going to be paying for an account for her to use. (He cannot afford that, he is awful with money.)
I know it is not just me causing all these fights. She seems to be fighting with everyone. I came home from work today and she was yelling at someone on the phone in her car for at least 20 minutes before she came inside. I was watching TV in the living room while typing this, she walks out of her room, heaves a huge sigh, and slams the front door so loud I thought she broke something. I didn't even look at her, but I am now hiding out in my room to avoid her.
She has ruled my life for years. My dad enables her due to guilt from when she lived with my mom. That could be its own post. My dad refuses to do anything to help YS, such as therapy, because he didn't do anything for her when she lived with mom. So now he doesn't want to do anything that will make her unhappy. She doesn't even have to unload the dishwasher, because, and I quote, "they are not her dishes." No, she does not have her own sets of dishes that she uses separate. She uses the same dishes as the rest of us. I don't get it either.
If you have read this far, you are a trooper. We have now come to the main issue. Am I in the wrong here? Im not crazy, and this is not normal behaviour, right? I am so sick and tired of being scared of YS moods. I have decided to go no contact as best as possible. I know that may make things worse (she doesn't like being ignored), but I can't handle her anymore. Does she seem bipolar to you, based on what I have described? I know I am biased in my opinion of her, so I tried to be as neutral as possible. I know I am not blameless. When she decides to be nice, I love being around her. But when she is in a bad mood, just being in the wrong place is enough to set her off.

I got rejected from medicine and I originally thought I wouldn’t do a gap year because at least from my research there’s essentially 4 ways to get into medicine 1) you have good GCSE grades and apply to universities such as cardiff and Birmingham that favour this 2) you get good a level grades and apply to unis such as Exeter that favour this 3) you get a good ucat score and apply to unis such as Bristol 4) lots of work experience and apply to unis like keele that favour this
All my options here apart from 3 are ruled out because:
1) my GCSEs weren’t bad (988887776) but not particularly good against other medicine candidates with all 9s and 8s 2) I’m hoping for an AAA at a levels there’s no way I could pull off 3A* 3) I suck at the ucat, completely crumble under pressure and despite around 50 or so hours of revision I got a 2460 score
That leaves only option 4, however only 2 unis keele and Sunderland use the R and R form to select candidates for interview. The process also doesn’t seem to have a clear way of selecting candidates so leads to uncertainty. Therefore this is not a particularly good route to take.
This means that essentially all my options for medicine have been ruled out so I think my only way of getting in would be GEM but I’d do a pharmacy degree first since I can see myself being happy doing pharmacy although it isn’t what I REALLY want to do which is medicine.
So overall I’m not sure whether to do a gap year since it seems kinda pointless since there’s no real “avenue” I can take to get in. Any advice would be appreciated!

I got rejected from medicine and I originally thought I wouldn’t do a gap year because at least from my research there’s essentially 4 ways to get into medicine 1) you have good GCSE grades and apply to universities such as cardiff and Birmingham that favour this 2) you get good a level grades and apply to unis such as Exeter that favour this 3) you get a good ucat score and apply to unis such as Bristol 4) lots of work experience and apply to unis like keele that favour this
All my options here apart from 3 are ruled out because:
1) my GCSEs weren’t bad (988887776) but not particularly good against other medicine candidates with all 9s and 8s 2) I’m hoping for an AAA at a levels there’s no way I could pull off 3A* 3) I suck at the ucat, completely crumble under pressure and despite around 50 or so hours of revision I got a 2460 score
That leaves only option 4, however only 2 unis keele and Sunderland use the R and R form to select candidates for interview. The process also doesn’t seem to have a clear way of selecting candidates so leads to uncertainty. Therefore this is not a particularly good route to take.
This means that essentially all my options for medicine have been ruled out so I think my only way of getting in would be GEM but I’d do a pharmacy degree first since I can see myself being happy doing pharmacy although it isn’t what I REALLY want to do which is medicine.
So overall I’m not sure whether to do a gap year since it seems kinda pointless since there’s no real “avenue” I can take to get in. Any advice would be appreciated!

I got rejected from medicine and I originally thought I wouldn’t do a gap year because at least from my research there’s essentially 4 ways to get into medicine 1) you have good GCSE grades and apply to universities such as cardiff and Birmingham that favour this 2) you get good a level grades and apply to unis such as Exeter that favour this 3) you get a good ucat score and apply to unis such as Bristol 4) lots of work experience and apply to unis like keele that favour this
All my options here apart from 3 are ruled out because:
1) my GCSEs weren’t bad (988887776) but not particularly good against other medicine candidates with all 9s and 8s 2) I’m hoping for an AAA at a levels there’s no way I could pull off 3A* 3) I suck at the ucat, completely crumble under pressure and despite around 50 or so hours of revision I got a 2460 score
That leaves only option 4, however only 2 unis keele and Sunderland use the R and R form to select candidates for interview. The process also doesn’t seem to have a clear way of selecting candidates so leads to uncertainty. Therefore this is not a particularly good route to take.
This means that essentially all my options for medicine have been ruled out so I think my only way of getting in would be GEM but I’d do a pharmacy degree first since I can see myself being happy doing pharmacy although it isn’t what I REALLY want to do which is medicine.
So overall I’m not sure whether to do a gap year since it seems kinda pointless since there’s no real “avenue” I can take to get in. Any advice would be appreciated!

I got rejected from medicine and I originally thought I wouldn’t do a gap year because at least from my research there’s essentially 4 ways to get into medicine 1) you have good GCSE grades and apply to universities such as cardiff and Birmingham that favour this 2) you get good a level grades and apply to unis such as Exeter that favour this 3) you get a good ucat score and apply to unis such as Bristol 4) lots of work experience and apply to unis like keele that favour this
All my options here apart from 3 are ruled out because:
1) my GCSEs weren’t bad (988887776) but not particularly good against other medicine candidates with all 9s and 8s 2) I’m hoping for an AAA at a levels there’s no way I could pull off 3A* 3) I suck at the ucat, completely crumble under pressure and despite around 50 or so hours of revision I got a 2460 score
That leaves only option 4, however only 2 unis keele and Sunderland use the R and R form to select candidates for interview. The process also doesn’t seem to have a clear way of selecting candidates so leads to uncertainty. Therefore this is not a particularly good route to take.
This means that essentially all my options for medicine have been ruled out so I think my only way of getting in would be GEM but I’d do a pharmacy degree first since I can see myself being happy doing pharmacy although it isn’t what I REALLY want to do which is medicine.
So overall I’m not sure whether to do a gap year since it seems kinda pointless since there’s no real “avenue” I can take to get in. Any advice would be appreciated!

Have you seen such a thing? Is this typical for a rural hospital? Would a sign-on bonus raise a red flag? Of note, the position is for a night shift.
Just curious which option you would choose as a new grad:
Option #1: Work in a rural independent community pharmacy (8-hour shift x 5 days; limited benefits compared to chain pharmacy and hospital)
Option #2: Work night shift at a hospital (full time; 8 pm to 7 am; no breaks; you are the only pharmacist; will have to cover codes on top of inpatient duties)
If your options were big chain retail versus night shift hospital and you are a new grad with very limited hospital experience, which one would you choose?

I paced the living room from 7am - 12pm today without stopping (with pee breaks). I've had racing thoughts. This anxious energy that I can't get out.
I saw my pdoc today. Brought my dad with me. He told her what was going on and that something needed to be done. I told her I was on Klonipin in the past and it was helpful. She said the program I'm in doens't typically allow benzos to be rx'd but she made the exception for me because she saw how much I was struggling.
Once I picked it up from the pharmacy I took the pill and 1.5 hours later I was felt I was able to sit down and relax and listen to music. I felt comfortable in my own skin for the first time in months.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE express your concerns with your providers. Bring a loved one with your to your appointment to back you up like I did. You got this.

Signed up yesterday, charged the initial $200 to my HRA, because I can't get an in-person appt until the end of next month. Had thr telehealth appt today, went great. Doc sends the script to the pharmacy in the next town over. I call the pharmacy. They say it'll be ready in half an hour. So I head over, half an hour away, wait for a few, then the pharmacy lady comes out and says they can no longer dispense the meds without an in-person appt. So now I'm furious and crying in my car. Fucking fuckety fuck fuckers.

So I used to be a certified pharmacy technician maybe 5 years ago. I really enjoyed it but they only offered part time hours then and the pay wasn't great. I now have the opportunity to get back into the pharmacy world as a full time tech but was hesitant about going back, mostly because of the fact that this really seems like a dead end position. In my mind, you're either a tech or a pharmacist, and I do not have the time, money or patience to go to pharmacy school. I also have experience as an IV technician in a clean room environment and that definitely wasn't for me. So if I want to make more money or expand on my career, is it even a possibility? Are there other opportunities or maybe additional educational programs for techs to move up in the pharmacy or heathcare world that don't require a long term degree? Just needed some outside perspective on this. Thank you 😊

Im just overwhelmed. The fact that one thing can trigger a sprial. Yesterday was a good day, until night when one of my friends texted me saying she did soemthing so fucking reckless that it couldve costed her life. And of course i got uoset and was like dont fucking do that like i dont want to be on the other end of that phone call from your parents, a cop, a mutual friend or the coroner. Like whwt the fuck. And it pissed me off even more that her response to my response was just dismissive. And it just like made me more upset seeing that she was so dismissive and yet im also extremely worried because of the dismissiveness. And i dont know how to porcess it or move on so i just left her on read until i can 5rynto figure out how to go about it. Like i know what its like to be reckless like that and dismissiv eof the possible outcome because of how numb i was to it. And 5hats what eorries me. Then i woke up okay after going to be angry then got hit myself with bad headspace. Works hectic today, im just irritated. Were trying to figure out if someone is a safety hazard being with us in the pharmacy and were all getting exhausted from working with her and trying to help but its getting no where and it sjust unneeded stress for all of us. Our boss has been oulling her and another tech out for part of the day to chat about how can we move forward but unfortunately thats about half of our staff right there and ao myself and the other one are just tired. My grandmothwrs deteriorating. Corporates cutting hours. Ive got too much else to deal with on my plate (esp mentally) and im just at a loss and overwhelmed. Ao now i sit in the the restroom crying because i dont really know whwt else to do right now :,)

I went to an ENT last Thursday for tinnitus and issues with my nose. He then did some tests and actually diagnosed me with tinnitus and sent in a prescription for Zithromax to my pharmacy. After finishing the five day round of Zithromax I noticed the ringing in my ears had increased and insane amount. I’ve been going insane about it for the past few days and I don’t know what to do. It’s constant high pitched ringing. I need fucking help, I need to be sedated. I cannot live like this and I do not want to go deaf. I’ve been having so many other issues too with my heart, depression, anxiety, fatigue and this makes the anxiety and depression so much worse. I hear Benzos can make tinnitus worse but helps with the time being but I don’t even know how likely I would be able to get a prescription. I feel like I’m losing my hearing, I can hear the ringing over my AC on high. I cannot focus and I don’t want to do a single thing. My parents are saying all my problems are in my head but I’m still going to doctors. I have an appointment in an hour or so and I really don’t know what to do. I feel I need to go to a mental hospital but I’m not actually suicidal but my freak outs and panic attacks are so bad. My mom called my therapist who then called me and said maybe consider that option or see a different psychiatrist than the one he recommended.

My son was diagnosed yesterday and his doctor wanted to try Vyvanse. A 30 day supply with our Aetna high deductible plan was $298 for us, so I laughed in the Walgreen tech's face and drove off.
The pediatrician sent in a Focalin Rx that was $91 for us. After a combined two hours of calling for updates, waiting in line to be told it's not ready, waiting on the phone to be transferred unbeknownst to me to another location, and finally going nuclear until a kind pharmacy tech at Walgreens took pity on my mama bear rage to investigate what was wrong, I paid the money to give us some breathing room to figure out a better solution before next month. He'll try the first dose tomorrow.
But seriously, how do Americans afford this and deal with the death of a thousand papercuts every month?!
I tried looking for Good Rx based on research in this sub, but it says we can't create a free account for a minor? So that means I have to pay for a family Good Rx account?
I already looked into Vyvanse's patient help program and we make too much to qualify - never mind that our income is used on seven out of pocket speech, occupational, and vision therapy appointments a week....

Is it only us suffering from less hours, I was full time but now we hardly get any..when will this be fixed :( I need hours to pay my bills 😪n so much more 🤕I don't know what to do. Should I look for other jobs at different pharmacies?

I have just had a call from sapphire patient coordinator..I was on today complaining about curaleaf and I want a new pharmacy..4 hours later they have found me one 2 miles from my house in Glasgow..I know I wil have to wait for it to be sent to them but its a normal pharmacy so I can call in and collect or have it sent out..hopefully no more lies..

I’m so fucking angry. I recently moved and had to find a psychiatrist to prescribe me adderall on short notice. There was only clinic without 6 months wait. Had my appointment today.
Their clinic requires patients to agree to a fucking drug test and pill count twice a year in order to prescribe me adderall! Not only that, but once they call I have 8 hours to come into clinic. Like what if I don’t check my phone every 8 hours at work?? In addition to some random bullshit about seeing no other psychiatrist and only using one pharmacy for my meds (um also there’s a shortage?). Oh and I’m sure that I need to pay for the drug tests too.
I am 100% finding a different provider long term, I just need one or two refills, but I am so pissed that people can make you jump through all these hoops just to get the medication that makes you function normally.

I have been working as a pharmacy assistant for the same Canadian mega corporation for the past 4 years. Over the course of those years this job has decreased my overall happiness and well-being, as well as added an immense amount of stress to my life.
A little less than a year ago I moved cities and transferred to another location of the same pharmacy chain. Management is constantly not putting me on the schedule and then asking me day before or day of if I can come in for shifts - I am not on call. Since January my store has been cutting hours, I went from getting 20 hours a week, to being scheduled in for ONE 4 hour shift this week. Then I was texted last week and told my singular shift had been cancelled, after the schedule was already posted. Leaving me with zero hours this week.
I was upset by this and immensely stressed about how I would pay rent, etc. I am also a university student (studying something not pharmacy related) and money is tight. So, I applied for a new job at an independent locally owned pharmacy. They offered me a set schedule with guaranteed hours as well as a pay increase. I took the job and I start next week, I sent a resignation email to my current boss and told them I was resigning immediately. I just felt like I had to be done, it has been 4 years too long. This company treats their employees like shit, and I couldn’t take it anymore.
Was I wrong for quitting without notice? What would you have done in my position?
EDIT: thank you for all the support guys :) I’m feeling really good about my decision, feels like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders knowing I never have to go back there again

I was with CVS for 6 years before deciding that shit was no longer worth it. For context that pharmacy was 24 hours and one of the highest volume stores in the state. So I was spoiled by the fact that I never had downtime or got bored at work. Got a gig at a relatively small hospital. Just under 200 beds. Now I spend at least 2 hours a day just sitting on my ass, looking for stuff to do, and fucking around on reddit. Its so mind numbingly boring that I leave 2 hours early every day and still sit around for most of my shift. We only run 2 technicians.
Techs working at smaller hospitals, how tf do you occupy your day?! I can only look for stuff to hand pack,restock fluids, or pretend to do meaningful inventory management so many times....

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