I’m a male in my early 20’s thinking of moving to NYC at the end of 2023. I never thought I’d actually be considering a move like this, but my new WFH job and increasing rent prices in FL are making it a more realistic option for me. My budget is $3k/mo and I’d prefer a 1br over a studio if possible. I don’t care much about nightlife or being around people my age, and my only real priorities are easy access to 1)nature and 2)public transportation. What parts of the city could meet my needs AND fit in my budget?

it been a month (sorry but am even more poor now so i cant buy anything, i still have a few but i have to space it out)
am i sitting here at 10 pm (i write the review in multiple days sometimes lol) making a review because i have to declutter my cloths and am TERRIFIED, yes absolutely is it wort it yes
it a few days later and now am watching the fast and the furious am at the 8 right now, ill probably be done by tomorrow, it a fun marathon, right now the best one is the first, but like as a kid my fav was always the 3 one, guess when we grow up our taste grow up too lol
what's a duet: it a concept created by osmofolia (am pretty sure as i never seen it before) where a perfume is made by 2 perfume, so lets say you have exquisite corps that's the perfume you buy, when you receive it you gonna have 2 bottle, vanilla milk and smoked lavender musk, when you layer them on your skin, they become exquisite corps! but the fun part is that you have 3 perfume, and the 2 bottle you get are amazing layering notes (as it their hole purpose) so you can add them to any perfume you want
LIKES: tea, patchouli, tart fruits, close to skin smell, greens (grass, moss, leaf's of all sort (tomato leaf yum)), atmospheric/realistic, citrus, frankincense, cedar, most fruits actually, soil, roses, lavender, salt, sage, cannabis, rosemary, cozy gourmand, marshmallow, smoke, cinnamon actually most spice, pine/fir, violet leaf/violet, i like stuff that feel wet (fog, ocean, rain), ambergris
DISLIKES: ozone, aldehyde, oud, sandalwood, cinnamon leaf, big silage, white floral, especially tuberose and gardenias, but also just florals in general, alcoholics, vetiver, perfumy perfume, most milk, tar, when company say “for woman” or “for man”
HATE OR LOVE no in between: Hay, jasmine, incense, pink pepper, fancy woods, most resins, iris/orris, petrichor
to your attention: this is not really a critique, but it still normal i don't gush over everything, am talking about my taste not trying to sell you anything, i like all the company i talk about and if i don't i will say it. i am a bitch but don't let your feeling get hurt over a little dumb post please ;) love yall lets do this
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HONEY DUST you mean pollen right?
notes: pollen, hay, honey, beeswax, powdered sugar
though: so on the bottle there the name of the duet (what a spellcaster leaves behind) and a number not the name of the note, and when i got them i was too lazy to look it up to make sure i wrote the right name so i just did it by memory, so now on my bottle it written "pollen" lol. i do think it perfect for this perfume it super dusty to the point were if you have pollen allergy i would tell you to stay away from this, it also gives me the same harshness grass perfume give me sometime but it not at all green wish is kinda weird too maybe the hay?
color: golden yellow dust of pollen in a gold ornate jar sitting on a red tinted wood table
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ANTIQUE BOOK if vanilla ice cream and white wood had a child
notes: paper, leather, glue, old book, cedar, vanilla, cetalox
though: every single book fragrance is either super chemical or super woody marshmallow there just no in-between and this is a woody marshmallow that dry down to a sandalwood-y thingy, i don't hate it but i do think it better as a addition to another perfume then by it own. but on it own i think it perfect for the book ladies that are a little (a bit) more conservative then me (and always ladies in a non gendered way lolll i just have a booktok person in mind and shes a woman, but it not a woman perfume none are)
color: a hard cover book with no letter printed on any of the page (your gonna say, oh a drawing pad, nah, a small hard cover where they just made a mistake on the print and there nothing) and also you know the wood you can find around lake and the sea, it super white and soft, that but in a 2x4

WHAT A SPELLCASTER LEAVES BEHIND cream pollen
notes: pollen, hay, honey, beeswax, powdered sugar, paper, leather, glue, old book, cedar, vanilla, cetalox
though: this is interesting the vanilla milk note almost lost itself in the honey dust, but then you smell honey dust on it own again and your like ok i see it much more chill on the dusty-ness it is i get it i get it, it also a perfect on the name i love it! what a spellcaster leaves behinds it so descriptive and cute i love it!
color: a huge dusty, very dusty book, with gold corner and yellowing pages
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VANILLA MILK sweet brown milk (smell better then it sounds)
notes: cream, caramel , heliotrope, vanilla, milk, musk
though: that's not for me, for sure, i mean to be fair my skin don't work with anything milk, my only love is milk shaka from Damask Haus, to me this is sickly sweet, but i don't think most would think that, if you like a milk caramel this is for you for sure, this is concerning because of the realism, i mean it smell like warm milk, and the thick light brown caramel that looks like melted plastic but actually taste pretty good, just very artificial, witch is weird cuz caramel sauce is so easy to make and i don't get why restaurant and ice cream shop don't make it themselves it like 3 ingredient, butter, sugar and cream, (brown sugar if you want butterscotch). you also have a bit for a floral note but it just adds to the warm milk, really interesting i see this being very popular with the gourmand people
color: a room temperature glass of milk forgotten on a oval shaped table, you know the big ones in wood, with a super big feet underneath, they always have some middle piece of broderie made by some grand mother and and a flower pot full of fresh flower (white heliotrope this time) on the other side of the table there a caramel cream pie
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SMOKED LAVENDER MUSK gay fur
notes: lavender, smoke, oakmoss, musk
though: lavender smoke is a pretty common mix, i don't particularly care for but i love this, it fun it sexy and the lavender pretty realistic. if you know a bit about queer history, lavender been a symbol of gay-ness (lol) since the end of the 19th century, and idk if it since i know this fact that i believe all lavender perfume are gay, well this not the exception (i really don't think there one, it like violet) idk know why exactly but this perfume is just very queer to me, only downside, cuz it really smell good, it that it doesn't last super long contrary to vanilla milk that's super persistent
color: light purple fur coat, and a black leather cat suit with cowboy boots and a big chunky belt, but truly it just a smoke lavender love

EXQUISITE CORPS They are cold like porcelain
notes: lavender, smoke, oakmoss, musk, cream, caramel , heliotrope, vanilla, milk, musk
though: you know i bitch a lot about name accuracy but this is spot on, does it smell like a crops, i mean no, not that i know of (and idk every dead i seen was in dust form not corps form) but it has this cold creaminess mix with the floral it just exactly the name. his is amazing if you put just a little bit of the vanilla milk (my opinion, but don't you think this concept is amazing for that you can dose your 2 perfume to make exactly the combi you prefer)
color: cold, soft but lifeless skin. resting on a pile of white and purple flower, white coffin, 2 small marble column on each side to witch rest on top flower pot. people crying
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7/11 STEAMED MATCHA LATTE a dammed good matcha latte
notes: steam, matcha, warm milk, green tea, cream
though: this is the best of them all, by far, on it own, it just so perfect, the matcha super realistic, it super creamy it has this amazing grass quality and i just sweet enough, as a tea note lover THIS, IS perfect. i were it the most out of the 6 and any combination of the 6. oh last thing it kinda also smell like white chocolate just so you know but there literally nothing else i can say to this perfume it a perfection in simplicity
color: white chocolate and matcha ganache, i kinda want to make a matcha latte recipe but it would be too long cuz there way to many step to make a fancy matcha latte, you'll have to imagine it lol
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COLD RAIN ON PAVEMENT perfectionism
notes: cold air, humid air, puddles, rain, concrete, tar
though: i hate ozone/aldehydes, but objectifly this one is not too bad, osmofolia has a goesmin single note that is actually realistic rain this one is not (to me) but it still adjacent, it wet, bright, soapy and and a bit floral, i mean ofc i wont like a perfume that give me a headache, but that's not the perfume fault right like, i know this perfume is beautiful, it gives me Ghibli rain scene, like in Arrietty, Totoro or Kiki the Little Witch, it rain but in a very aesthetically pleasing way, am doing a fast and furious marraton but after i feel like watching all the ghibli movie
color: walking next to a flower shop after the rain, a little brightness in the thick of the concrete jungle

ON THE CORNER OF JINHU ROAD too pretty
notes: steam, matcha, warm milk, green tea, cream, cold air, humid air, puddles, rain, concrete, tar
though: every one that read my reviews know 2 thing for sure about me, i hate ozone/aldehydes like we seen right before and i have weird references, well weirdly i don't hate this, i mean not on me it would still give me a head ache like ozone/aldehydes always do but it pleasant, i think it the creaminess, it kinda chill out the harshness of cold rain on pavement, but it still has the buzz-ness, it like a soapy, after the rain drinking a matcha latte (that has some kind of white floral syrup in) it pretty, too pretty for me
color: walking next to a flower shop after the rain, a little brightness in the thick of the concrete jungle but the flower shop is also a coffee shop and you get yourself a matcha latte
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MIX AND MATCH, if you get it you get it if you don't you don't ok
Matcha + Milk = Brown Sugar Matcha Latte
Matcha + Lavender = Dirty Matcha
Matcha + Book = White Chocolate BonBon
Matcha + Pollen = Fancy HoneyBee With Her Little Tea
Milk + Book = Alpha, Eating At The Library
Milk + Pavement = Frolicking, Naked After The Rain
Milk + Pollen = Sexy Picnic
Lavender + Pavement = Smoking In The Flower Field
Lavender + Book = Gay Woodworker
Lavender + Pollen = Ashtray, Potpourri
Pavement + Pollen = Electric Bee, Buzz Buzz
Pavement + Book = Little Bookstore In Old Montréal
Pollen + Book = Reading in the Sunroom
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i could do a combi of 3 perfume but that just to much work, but if you do please share in the comment your favs lolll
this month as been kinda hell, am still working on my move (to no where lol) and am nowhere near done, now am starting to make the boxes (tomorrow) and it stressing me the fuck out, anyway on that note, how do you make pr? loll (half joking) cuz yeah i miss doing these review, but dont worry i still have maybe 5 review left if i don't count the discontinued stereoplasm
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also, have a great night love xoxo

I had been single for a while after my last relationship ended, it was long term with someone I genuinely loved and thought I would marry so it messed me up a lot when it ended. Especially the way it ended, which there’s no need to go in to for this.
Anyway, flash forward over a year and I’m finally re-entering the dating scene. I start talking to this girl who I had known at a previous job, and was not attracted to her then, as friends - no intention of trying to date her. We just had the same interest in a show we were watching at the same time and would talk about it. As we talked (all online as I didn’t work with her anymore) conversations would dive into other realms. It got to a point where I realized we were really clicking emotionally as we discussed a million different things including some personal stuff going on in her life, I felt some sort of spark in conversation. She pointed it out that she felt that way, and I expressed that I had caught the same vibe. So, the talking stage officially began.
Now, at this point I’m traveling out of state so have to wait a while to see her in person. I remembered having absolutely zero physical attraction to her in person back when we worked together, but I had been told by other people that she lost weight and looked better since then, so I figured I’d maybe give it a shot. I made no promises to her, just told her we could see how things go when I get back, and we kept texting until then. We also called a handful of times. Had some deep conversations too, really did feel like it might be going somewhere.
But then I get back from my travels and we meet up again - everything people had told me had not been true, at least not in my opinion. She was just as unattractive in person as she used to be. And I don’t mean this in an offensive way, I genuinely did get along with her well and view her as a good person, I just felt absolutely nothing in a sexual manner after being with her in person. She is obese (not just a little overweight - she is clinically obese) and struggle with some other issues like hair loss. Nothing that makes her a bad person at all, I know some of its not her fault, but regardless I just couldn’t be attracted to her no matter how hard I tried.
But she kept talking about dieting and losing weight and taking better care of herself, so I thought maybe over time as she changed I could grow to be attracted to her physically as she lost weight. And I wanted to, because we clicked so well personality wise. So I kept seeing her every now and then. I made sure to mention that I was seeing other people too as an attempt to remind her there was no commitment yet, made sure not to make any false promises to her etc, but I feel like I still led her on unintentionally.
Because she never really changed, and I eventually realized I would never be attracted to her physically, which caused the emotional connection to end. I started seeing someone else who I was physically attracted to and we are now dating. But this original girl was very hurt when I cut things off with her.
And I feel bad because realistically, I should have known from the start that it wouldn’t work and should have not led her on. Should have shut things down from the beginning when I remembered not being attracted to her, or at least shut them down when I met up with her again in person and realized she had not changed. but I didn’t shut it down right away, my “maybe it could change” led to me basically leading her on, which hurt her in the end when I did cut it off.
She freaked out when I did. Cried that I broke her heart. Made some comment about being sorry she wasn’t skinny and pretty like ___ (the girl I’m currently dating). And I feel mildly guilty. I know she’s overreacting yes, but I also feel like I am partially to blame as well. I’ve tried apologizing, but I’m not sure what to do. I feel like an asshole

I don’t plan on applying for law school for another two years. I just graduated undergrad and got two job opportunities one at my state’s attorney generals office and another my county prosecuting office. One is higher paying than the other, both are entry level. I’m a bit stuck on which to take. What do you think would look better on my resume?

Hello all,
I am in my early thirties and have been feeling the most depressed I have in a long while. Have always had anxiety and depression came later in life. I have a job I'm not too thrilled about, work from home, hardly have any friends, no relationship. My best friend throughout most of my adult years was my cousin, but she passed away suddenly from a very random cancer diagnosis that I have not fully recovered from and don't think I ever will. I dream about her constantly.
When my cousin died, her friends came to visit my family a lot out of courtesy, but I don't think any of them really understood me. One time, I was being vulnerable and shared all my feelings and everybody went quiet, so I decided to not talk much anymore. My own childhood friends hardly cared to even check in on how I'm doing. Only one made some effort. I used to think it was b/c we don't live in the same area before, but now one of my friends lives in the same city and hanging out is really so easy. Still, I never hear from my friends and they never make plans with me. They're in their own world with their own friends.
I hardly get any work at my job and I work from home-I know this is a dream scenario for most non-depressed people, but it's making my depression worse. Even though I'm trying to do hobbies or upskill, deep down, I feel crushed by the pointlessness of everything. I worked so hard in my twenties in my career, I did everything I can and more to make friends, network and really went out of my comfort zone despite social anxiety that even non-socially anxious people I know do not have the courage to do. It didn't really help me at all. I have tons of great skills, but that didn't necessarily help with employment-"networking" and all of that, even though I've tried, seems to work for some, not for me.
I was not always like this. Had a ton of incredible friends in childhood. Was close to my cousins. They have all abandoned me in some way or the other. I had friends who when we were 8, they were moving and they were the ones who cried at the airport because they were leaving me. Now they don't even keep in touch and unfriended me on Insta even though I still have them on mine. Married with kids now, successful in both professional and creative industries. I feel like most of my childhood friends have even forgot I exist! I have nothing to wow anybody or show for really.
Few years ago, my aunt had some meltdown episode and called me things-a piece of shit, told me I was supposed to be aborted. She got angry over something so minor (I was upset that somebody had moved some of my clothes in a bag and just complained about that with an annoyed tone) and she blew up at me. She has since "forgotten about the whole thing", but everytime I am around her, even though she is nice to me now, I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. I was humiliated in front of my entire family and cousins. None of my other cousins have been treated that way.
I currently live with roommates too and one of them has been passive aggressive with me for no reason. It makes living in my own apartment, that I like otherwise, so uncomfortable. I bought a car last year-my first ever big purchase, and scraped it badly within a month of having it at a gas station bollard that was sticking out obscure from my view. I'm a super careful driver and that i happened depressed me to my core. It is fixed now, but I can't stop feeling bad about it.
Idk. I haven't given up. I still try to do things to help me personally and professionally. But my energy and enthusiasm for it is low. Sometimes can get myself to exercise and go on walks which is great but isn't a "cure". Haven't felt pure joy and happiness in a long time. Idk how to get out of this rut.

Pretty much title, I guess?
How reliable are these types of communications and how likely am I to receive an offer that fits the job description I applied for? The communication I have received from these companies appears frenetic and rushed, which signals a lot of red flags to me. I would like to get more opinions from people with more seasoned backgrounds since I feel bad shutting down potential job offers without giving more thought to the process.
Thanks for all advice!

I've been unemployed and underemployed since I got out of college, wasn't smart at all with my money, and now I'm in a shit debt hole that I dug myself. BUT - I finally have a job where I'm making six figures, moved back home so I'm not paying an ungodly amount of rent, and learning to cut back on unnecessary spending.
Here's what my finances look like today:
Discover: $16,785.68 16.99% APR Capital One: $4,773.96 24.74% APR Barclays: $1,332.87 24.75% APR Student Loans: $26,257 (Haven't made payments due to loan pause) Roth IRA: +$17,633 Monthly living costs: ~$1,500 (rent, utilities, gas, food) Paycheck (Monthly): $5,400
I've been unemployed for the last six months and underemployed before that for 2.5 years. So thankful to have landed the role that I did, because I get a lot of overtime which isn't factored into my monthly pay above - I'll be using that OT to build my emergency fund while using the rest of my normal pay outside of monthly costs to pay off my debt.
I'll likely start paying my Barclays and CO card off first, as those are the lowest and have the highest APR. Then I'll start working on discover which is the scariest one. Once student loans start back up, I'll allocate funds for that - but my main priority right now are the CC cards. Tbh, with around 4k/month to use and pay my cards off, this mounting debt doesn't seem as daunting, but I'll be keeping my spending tight regardless.
Committed to becoming debt free - I hope to revisit this thread with good news in the next year or year and a half!
Please let me know if you have any feedback regarding my approach! Any suggestions or tips or encouragement would be helpful as well :')

I've (28M) been with my girlfriend (21F we'll call her Sarah) for about 2 years now. I love weed. Its my life. Cant live without it. However Sarah is VERY against it. Like she gets all freaked out if she even smells it and immediately has to leave the area. She never allows me to smoke around her. I finally asked her why she's so paranoid about it and she told me the first time she tried an edible she had too much and had panic attacks and now if she's near the smoke for too long she will relive that experience and have the same affects which I think she's exaggerating and being hysterical about you cant get high from just the smell or second hand smoke especially in the open outside air. But I was curious what would happen if I gave her one of my famous muffins. Its kind of my specialty where I can LOAD the thing up with so much to make myself trip balls but the muffin itself just tastes like an ordinary chocolate chip muffin. So I did that, and honestly she was hilarious when high. Acting all panicky and paranoid over nothing and it was pretty funny. However she started to sob crying like she started acting all emotional and hysterical which I thought was a big overreaction. I locked her in our bedroom to let her sleep it off but I could hear her SCREAMING so I finally let her out and she was begging me to take her to hospital. I kept trying to reassure her she's fine and she's safe but she was just being completely unreasonable so I just kept talking her through it until she fell asleep and the next day I apologized to her but she left and she hasn't been answering my calls and texts. AITA for what I did? Or is she being completely dramatic?

Ok this may seem obvious but to me it's not, UK based.
Unemployment, why the massive no?
This is really for the ladies in the reddit as a 40 m seeking a lady but anyone can answer.
Before you all rush to make a comment and state the reasons why please read on...
There are people who are unemployed due to health reasons and not by choice such as myself. What happens if your dating someone and then they lose their job and become unemployed?
What happens if you lose your job or become redundant and become unemployed? Would you then stand for being ghosted or ignored because of it?
I understand there are a lot of people that play the system (and no I don't agree with this under any circumstance), is this the reason? Is it seen as lazy?
I'm just interested to see ladies views and challenge the stereotype.

To start off,I’m an 18 year old boy with basic teen interests and I am filled to the brim with ambition. To start off the year, my goals were to get a better physique which I have done so far this year, I got a new car going from a $700 beater as the price of the trade in was, to a 2012 v6 mustang which makes me somewhat happy. I found a job and got a raise and get treated great my fellow employees. Finally, I did good in my college courses. I finally accomplished my main goals besides getting a girlfriend. However, I feel so unmotivated to get one and I feel I’m not worthy! Can anyone else reflate to this or am I just screwed in the head?

So I'm having a hell of a time confirming between 3V and 3F. I'm almost positive it's 3F, but I want to make sure I'm not just choosing that over 3V because 3V sounds so damn miserable.
Points for 3V:
-Planning my future/setting goals is not a strong point. I decided in August that I'd be going back to school for a job in the medical field (MUCH more money than I'm making now in retail, and only a two year certification/degree/whatever). Thinking about actually getting into the program gives me pretty intense anxiety, since I'm pretty sure it's not something I'll actually be at all passionate about, and it's a very competitive program. The money is definitely the driving motivation. I have a backup plan to start studying coding in my spare time, though I haven't brought myself to actually DO it yet
-I don't really set goals, specifically. I worked with a guy who set actual New Year's resolutions and worked towards them, and it just seemed so odd? Like, have general goals (like mine was to better my mental health, get involved in hobbies that interest me), but what you want and your circumstances are going to change, so just let what happens happen?

• When people are talking about their futures and achievements, I feel very insecure, like I'm behind everyone or that they'll know I don't measure up

-I do get insecure and worried about how people perceive my work ethic, then end up overdoing it and stressing that me not being perfect will lead to me being branded as "lazy" and get fired. I've gotten bonuses in each job I've had essentially for having good work ethic, but it's still always a worry
Points for 3F:
-Cluttered areas STRESS ME OUT. At work if things are not exactly where they should be, I get overwhelmed and can't concentrate until I put things right.
-The neuroses and miserable insecurity around having a body (leading into the next point). I had a lot of things like allergies, asthma, eczema, etc growing up, as well as weight issues, all of which contributed to me being wildly uncomfortable with myself and my body. It sometimes even goes so far as to feel physically trapped, like I'm stuck in this oozing body with no way out (felt like that all the time when the eczema was flaring horribly).
-I do a lot of body modifications (tattoos, piercings, stretched ears, then temporary things like eyelash lifts and hair dyeing) because they help me feel better about having a body since I get some control over it, and I get to have things I like on it
-Cleaning and cooking are garbage. I'll do the barest minimum I can, and barely that. It's wild to me to listen to people who spend hours every day doing either, and schedules for cleaning? That they follow?!
-I do feel like a child in regards to anything practical
Overall, I'm pretty sure I'm 3F 4V since in general, I don't really mind being a "follower" (as not flattering as that is to say), I'm okay accepting being wrong (too readily a lot tbh), and I don't aspire to leadership (not the only reasons, but I feel like they're pretty significant). I've watched some videos and 3F really resonated, but I do recognize that this system is hard for me to grasp.
I'd love to hear everyone's thoughts!
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Currently on T-mobile, thinking of switching to Fi to add my mom who wants to use an iPhone 14 so I'm concerned about issues I've been lurking on the subreddit.
How common is the short codes problem (people not able to receive short codes like MFA from banks/credit cards/etc) and is there an actual easy resolution? Is it for all phones or specifically for phones that aren't officially supported, like iPhones?
 
I was reading people are also having porting problems with T-Mobile. She wants to keep her current number so I don't want to risk being unable to do that for her (number lost in limbo like some posts here have said).
 
Anything else to be concerned about for an iPhone user? Mom not very tech savvy and might freak out about small issues so I need to be prepared/aware of anything that might cause day-to-day problems. She doesn't live near me so I'd have to do remote support for her.

I've died 3 times now due to lag. It's insane how awful the stability is.
Just now I was literally on land without any lava near me and I lagged out and spontaneously caught fire and was kicked out of the server and when I tried to log back in it said that I had died??
What is going on with this server?

I'm in a whirlwind of emotions right now and I could really use some advice. I've been dating, let's call her 'Sophie', for about three years now. We met at a charity event, and it was love at first sight. She's always been outgoing, charming, and incredibly social, which I admired since I'm more of an introvert. Sophie works in PR and often has to attend events and parties for her job. She's always been very open about her work and often invites me along. But a few days ago, I stumbled upon something that has left me reeling. I was using Sophie's laptop to order some takeout (with her permission) when I accidentally clicked on a bookmarked webpage. It was her reddit NSFW account. The account had pics and videos with her face. The user boasted about having slept with hundreds of people and seemed to revel in the thrill of juggling so many partners. I was shocked and disgusted, but what really made my blood run cold was when I started noticing familiar details. The author mentioned a charity event where she met a 'shy but adorable' man, which is exactly how Sophie and I met. There were other details too - a pet name that Sophie calls me, a description of my apartment, even a mention of a private joke between us. I confronted Sophie about it, and after a lot of denial, she finally admitted that she is this user She said it started as a way to vent about her job and social life, but it spiraled out of control. She apologized and said she never meant to hurt me. I'm devastated. I feel like I don't know the woman I've been dating. I love Sophie, but I don't know if I can trust her anymore and a part of me is aroused. I don't know how to process this information or what to do next. I'm so confused and could really use some advice.

It’s nearly 3 weeks since my 50ml Botox treatment from Lucy Hickling. After some mild progress and a few successful burps I have unfortunately regressed to not being able to get any gas out at all.
I have had quite a bit of wheezing which Lucy said could be a side effect if the Botox went too close to the voice box, plus only minor slow swallow, so I do wonder if it maybe didn’t hit the crycopharangeus muscle as intended.
It is really disappointing as I was hopefully for a one-shot cure but trying to remain positive as I’ll hopefully get a second stronger dose.
I have my follow up with Lucy on 12th June and will discuss it then.
Has anyone been in a similar position to me and then started to get success? I am doubtful it will happen now with this dose but I guess it should last for 6-months so who knows.
I’ve been tracking my progress on a YouTube channel and will carry on as I have significant moments. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5PMdnEpqHccHxT_0HPb2rP7Z8-nHk1qY

Well, the short and long of it is that my life has been defined by my mental struggles and I am really trying to get better, but I still see how far I need to come to reach a point where genuine contentedness within myself and happiness are possible. I have been struggling with Avoidant Personality Disorder, chronic depression, and social anxiety for my entire adolescence and adulthood. The labels I suppose are not so important, but it's more just that there are significant underlying thought patterns that are very hard to get past. Due to a number of circumstances, I didn't really start to shift my perspective until my early 20s and didn't really start actively putting in the effort to better myself until around 25 (I am 27). I see a therapist/psychiatrist and have been taking my mental health extremely seriously as I know this is the last but largest hurdle I have in order to live the life I want. I suppose I don't appreciate it enough, but I was able to graduate college, get a master's degree, and have a fairly well-paying job now. I have been exercising regularly and have been able to change many of my external circumstances to be self-reliant and financially independent. People often don't see what I'm dealing with internally and seem to assume that I am put together which sometimes is reassuring but mostly makes me feel a bit alienated. I know that comparison is the thief of joy, but it's hard to accept that seemingly universal things are so difficult for me. I would like to have more friends and one thing I would like to eventually have is a meaningful relationship, yet I have basically shut myself out from romance entirely and at 27 playing catchup from the very start feels insurmountable when I am such an outlier. I hear people are supposed to have fun in their 20s, but I have spent them isolated and fighting internally to survive. In this sense, I feel like I cannot relate to people and I try to not let this push me further into that feeling of alienation and otherness. But when you are a true statistical outlier and not simply a late-bloomer, it gets tough not to start thinking that you are a biological mistake. I still am trying, albeit it is slow and incremental, but I just am having a hard time accepting that I still have a lot more to fix and I likely will not finally be able to have these universal human experiences until long after most.

Well, the short and long of it is that my life has been defined by my mental struggles and I am really trying to get better, but I still see how far I need to come to reach a point where genuine contentedness within myself and happiness are possible. I have been struggling with Avoidant Personality Disorder, chronic depression, and social anxiety for my entire adolescence and adulthood. The labels I suppose are not so important, but it's more just that there are significant underlying thought patterns that are very hard to get past. Due to a number of circumstances, I didn't really start to shift my perspective until my early 20s and didn't really start actively putting in the effort to better myself until around 25 (I am 27). I see a therapist/psychiatrist and have been taking my mental health extremely seriously as I know this is the last but largest hurdle I have in order to live the life I want. I suppose I don't appreciate it enough, but I was able to graduate college, get a master's degree, and have a fairly well-paying job now. I have been exercising regularly and have been able to change many of my external circumstances to be self-reliant and financially independent. People often don't see what I'm dealing with internally and seem to assume that I am put together which sometimes is reassuring but mostly makes me feel a bit alienated. I know that comparison is the thief of joy, but it's hard to accept that seemingly universal things are so difficult for me. I would like to have more friends and one thing I would like to eventually have is a meaningful relationship, yet I have basically shut myself out from romance entirely and at 27 playing catchup from the very start feels insurmountable when I am such an outlier. I hear people are supposed to have fun in their 20s, but I have spent them isolated and fighting internally to survive. In this sense, I feel like I cannot relate to people and I try to not let this push me further into that feeling of alienation and otherness. But when you are a true statistical outlier and not simply a late-bloomer, it gets tough not to start thinking that you are a biological mistake. I still am trying, albeit it is slow and incremental, but I just am having a hard time accepting that I still have a lot more to fix and I likely will not finally be able to have these universal human experiences until long after most.